Anonymous
Beloved of All
Im at one of the lowest points of my life. Dealing with health and major financial issues. Living on small fixed income and not getting by with it. Have been praying many years for a miracle (which I desperately need). Been praying for godly spouse and godly friends. Been praying for healing for family and me. Praying for a hedge of protection and more for each of us. I have had at least a mustard seed of faith. I thank God for many things. But yet my prayers aren't answered and some I have prayed over 20 years! I have thanked/praised God and believed God to do something. Yet nothing has changed. My faith is shaken I must admit. I am weary and dont want to go on like this. I see no way out - and God promises to make a way?
I need a miracle for my little family (living away from me) and a miracle for me - Today. (Healing and finances especially) Things are not good right now and I need something good to happen soon. I need to see God is there and loves me. That he hasnt forgotten me. I need to see Gods hand today! If he wont answer my prayers and help turn this around. I pray he takes me in my sleep!! Am so tired of being treated poorly by people. I give to others and do nice things even when I dont have enough food and money myself. I risk losing my little home. I still give to others and help as I am able. People turn their backs on me and others. So called 'christians' have been the worst. I have had 'pastors' lie. Right to my face. A few have actually made fun of me in front of others. The last pastor joked about me 6 different times at a small group at his house. What he said was told confidentially and I told him to never repeat it as it's not a small matter. I never went back to that Church again and he was too ignorant to call or follow up with me. No, he really did not care.
Pastors who many times dont live as they tell others to live and act. Yes. 'Pastors'? Think about that. When 'Christians' treat others worse than people off the street who claim to not believe in any god. I understand why when I hear people say that dont want to set foot in a church.
I need a miracle for my little family (living away from me) and a miracle for me - Today. (Healing and finances especially) Things are not good right now and I need something good to happen soon. I need to see God is there and loves me. That he hasnt forgotten me. I need to see Gods hand today! If he wont answer my prayers and help turn this around. I pray he takes me in my sleep!! Am so tired of being treated poorly by people. I give to others and do nice things even when I dont have enough food and money myself. I risk losing my little home. I still give to others and help as I am able. People turn their backs on me and others. So called 'christians' have been the worst. I have had 'pastors' lie. Right to my face. A few have actually made fun of me in front of others. The last pastor joked about me 6 different times at a small group at his house. What he said was told confidentially and I told him to never repeat it as it's not a small matter. I never went back to that Church again and he was too ignorant to call or follow up with me. No, he really did not care.
Pastors who many times dont live as they tell others to live and act. Yes. 'Pastors'? Think about that. When 'Christians' treat others worse than people off the street who claim to not believe in any god. I understand why when I hear people say that dont want to set foot in a church.
