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nuptial -bound
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Thanks to the souls who've prayed for me already! May God show up Suddenly+undeniably! I don't want to have you think: her again? I read my Bible+I pray ceaselessly, Love to pray for others—that's how I know Jesus lives in me. But, I'm not doing well. I'm still playing my break-up over in my head because I thought by Easter, a miracle, I hoped would happen. I kept in Faith longer than I ever have for ANYTHING, why am I still reeling? I'm unable to be comforted, even after 2 wks of fast+prayer? Where is God, why does he not give me some word, hope, sign of Turnaround/Breakthrough? I can't take much more Denial. I'm becoming weary from attacks, bitter, doubtful from waiting. Help me, people used to come to me for prayer+ I prayed for them but they don't pray for me—I feel used + forgotten, passed over. It's embarrassing, people shake their heads they know my prayers have gone unanswered for over 7 yrs. Give me a testimony, God, because I ask: this Christianity isn't working in my life, in fact, I'm thinking, I feel lied to, let down, feel more like a loser than ever. I'm not gonna make it 1 more yr., waiting. I'm slowly losing my mind, cursing the day I was born, + my very cursed lot. Am I lost for good? It's your move now, God.
