Fogtad
Disciple of Prayer
I'm a sinner knowing what I'm doing is a sin I always repeat doing. I can't resist my temptations. I got to know about adultery since my childhood during primary school, my cousin brother taught me about many things I was into incest thoughts, lustful thoughts, masturbation during childhood only, I couldn't get out of these till now I'm ### years old now turning ### next month. I couldn't concentrate on my studies I don't know how to interact with people during large gatherings. When I was into depression, porn was my relief. Over some period, I got to know about sex chatting, I talked about vulgar stuff with some of my friends who were girls. I had done many sins I feel guilt for those sometimes. Sometimes I feel like nothing is wrong I can do anything I want it's my life. I always look into other's life, I always think about other people, but I couldn't concentrate on myself. I always neglect my studies and procrastinate all the time available. I got a Medical seat last year with God's grace because I hadn't studied the whole year but I could write my exam well and join MBBS after a four long years gap, but even after joining MBBS I haven't changed I wasted a lot of time and I get worried a few days before the exam. I had passed my first year through His grace, even I neglected my second year it's ### days left but I didn't get serious about my exams I don't have any knowledge till now I was wasting my time... I'm masturbating 3-4 times a day these days. I'm getting weakened every day
. I'm having these sexual thoughts can't study my mind is full of sexual desires and lustful eyes. I was into dating apps I became very desperate about flesh I started this when I'm 14 years old it got worse from 18 years now I'm ###. Every time I try to stop masturbating I'm getting deviated. Every time I pray I fall. Please do pray for me.
