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chris
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Im 29 yrs old & im in love with my 1st cousin for more than 6 yrs, i diid so much for my love but after 6 yrs i feel all my pain suffering are all waste because he wil fights with me, i have told him about my past i,e about my 1st love he still keeps tat in mind n he is being so bad to me nowadays, v ave planned 2 get married on 1.3.13 but now due to our problems he keeps blackmailing me by saying he wont marry me he is not saying this for the 1st he kept on saying the same thing very often i got so fed up & i dont have any hope that he would marry me so i broke up with him yesterday, i was bearing all his tortures i diid wat all he asked for but finally he himself made me 2 say the word break up,
Just because i was not perfect in my past i was in love with a guy at the age of 16 i didnt know wat was right so i just fell in love without proper understanding & even that guy was so bad he use to hit me torture , use bad words so that time only i had to talk to my 1st cousin about my 1st love what i went through with my X boy friend he heard wat all i said & finally he asked me to break up with that fellow & he said he will take care of me n he said he loves me that time i was so confused & somehow i broke up with my x boyfriend after that im being true to my 1st cousin , i have told him everything what all bad situation i have gone throw at office& public place i dont hide anything to him, keeping that in mind he is torturing me now by hurting me by saying about my behavior at office, my dressing bla bal this was going on & on but finally yesterday he was asking me to do something if im not doing means he wont marry me. its not that i cant do im doing till now but the name what i get is i dont do anything preperly he wants me to update of what ever im doing , woth whom im talking what im talking, he wants to know wat dress im wearing i usually wear only salwars bcos he doesnt like me wearing any other dress but still he asked me to send photos of mine everyday so i even do that everyday i sent him my photos to show him that im wearing a proper dress but still he wil come with some complaints i have gone through so many sufferings to get him i stopped my wedding bcos of him, i stayed in an orphanage i ran out of my house to stop my wedding which was aranged by paraents i went through alot of pains & suffering after staying for a month in ana orphanage my parents called me back home & i went back home after that my staying at home was hell after days goes by my parents started talking about me that i went out o fthe house disgraced them bla bla i going thru this hurting from my parents till now almost 3 yrs im listening to my parents harsh words. but i had a hope that i will somehow marry my 1st cousin & everything wil be fine but this fellow stared putting new rules like i have do update everything to him what ever is happening from morning in th eoffice to whom all im talking to wat im talking i have to keep everything in mind n i shouls say tat itseems i even did that but sumthing or the other i used to forget & he says that i have hidden soumthing to him & im a cheater bla bla he will abuse me with bad words even for new year he was shouting so badly to me i was quiet. yesterday he is writing a mail saying that if i don update any of the things properly what ever im doing means he said marriage is doubtful i realy got very upset & i was very angry with him n i said i cant do anything wat ever u asked me to do becaus eif i do also he wil say i dint do properly so he will say he cant marry me only so i said u need marry me or bury me & i broke up with him,
Now i don have anyone to support in my life either my parents or him, just because of him i was against my whole family now im just left out alone , i dont know wat for im in this world i cant even go for a marriage now because im not mentally prepared to marry another person & moreover im getting older also i dont know what to do im really worried & i just don like to live n this world i feel like dying. pls help me im crying everyday 2 god but nothing is convincing im just loosing everything . i need god's help.
Just because i was not perfect in my past i was in love with a guy at the age of 16 i didnt know wat was right so i just fell in love without proper understanding & even that guy was so bad he use to hit me torture , use bad words so that time only i had to talk to my 1st cousin about my 1st love what i went through with my X boy friend he heard wat all i said & finally he asked me to break up with that fellow & he said he will take care of me n he said he loves me that time i was so confused & somehow i broke up with my x boyfriend after that im being true to my 1st cousin , i have told him everything what all bad situation i have gone throw at office& public place i dont hide anything to him, keeping that in mind he is torturing me now by hurting me by saying about my behavior at office, my dressing bla bal this was going on & on but finally yesterday he was asking me to do something if im not doing means he wont marry me. its not that i cant do im doing till now but the name what i get is i dont do anything preperly he wants me to update of what ever im doing , woth whom im talking what im talking, he wants to know wat dress im wearing i usually wear only salwars bcos he doesnt like me wearing any other dress but still he asked me to send photos of mine everyday so i even do that everyday i sent him my photos to show him that im wearing a proper dress but still he wil come with some complaints i have gone through so many sufferings to get him i stopped my wedding bcos of him, i stayed in an orphanage i ran out of my house to stop my wedding which was aranged by paraents i went through alot of pains & suffering after staying for a month in ana orphanage my parents called me back home & i went back home after that my staying at home was hell after days goes by my parents started talking about me that i went out o fthe house disgraced them bla bla i going thru this hurting from my parents till now almost 3 yrs im listening to my parents harsh words. but i had a hope that i will somehow marry my 1st cousin & everything wil be fine but this fellow stared putting new rules like i have do update everything to him what ever is happening from morning in th eoffice to whom all im talking to wat im talking i have to keep everything in mind n i shouls say tat itseems i even did that but sumthing or the other i used to forget & he says that i have hidden soumthing to him & im a cheater bla bla he will abuse me with bad words even for new year he was shouting so badly to me i was quiet. yesterday he is writing a mail saying that if i don update any of the things properly what ever im doing means he said marriage is doubtful i realy got very upset & i was very angry with him n i said i cant do anything wat ever u asked me to do becaus eif i do also he wil say i dint do properly so he will say he cant marry me only so i said u need marry me or bury me & i broke up with him,
Now i don have anyone to support in my life either my parents or him, just because of him i was against my whole family now im just left out alone , i dont know wat for im in this world i cant even go for a marriage now because im not mentally prepared to marry another person & moreover im getting older also i dont know what to do im really worried & i just don like to live n this world i feel like dying. pls help me im crying everyday 2 god but nothing is convincing im just loosing everything . i need god's help.
