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babydoll
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Dear God,
I know you can hear me, you have watched me suffer and be emotionally, physically and psychologically abused all my life. No, you may not have caused it but you let my oppressors harm me. I could not even look to you as a father anymore. I am now afraid after all that has happened on my nightmare holiday, what other terror will you stand back and allow in my life? Am I going to get a husband who is also abusive, am I going to be infertile or give birth to a sickly born and suffer the grief of a widow and a grieving mother? Are you going to hit me with a dangerous disease? I couldn't expect good from you because you have allowed such disgrace upon my life. So you bring justice and unmerited favor if you have an ounce of pain in your heart for what I have gone through. Let the man who desired to marry me, marry me without any talk, bind up all relationships and do not allow anybody to turn my mum and dad against me. And please do not have my dad book my ticket to leave India on ###. I do not want to leave my cousins; they are the only good thing in my life. Please stop my dad from destroying my happiness and abusing me, I want you to give him a dream or a picture of all my suffering so that he will understand what his daughter has been through. I don't care if you freeze hell to bring justice for me, you put these oppressors right. Never let me be anybody's scapegoat. Such evil people are living with favor, murderers, and rapists and frauds, so you give me their favor, I should have it if they can have it. If you are my father, you lift me before everybody's eyes and give me what I want. I cry every day and have wheezing and low pressure, the only thing I haven't done is killed myself, but I am in so much pain and afraid I may do that. So you do something, solve everything to my favor.
I know you can hear me, you have watched me suffer and be emotionally, physically and psychologically abused all my life. No, you may not have caused it but you let my oppressors harm me. I could not even look to you as a father anymore. I am now afraid after all that has happened on my nightmare holiday, what other terror will you stand back and allow in my life? Am I going to get a husband who is also abusive, am I going to be infertile or give birth to a sickly born and suffer the grief of a widow and a grieving mother? Are you going to hit me with a dangerous disease? I couldn't expect good from you because you have allowed such disgrace upon my life. So you bring justice and unmerited favor if you have an ounce of pain in your heart for what I have gone through. Let the man who desired to marry me, marry me without any talk, bind up all relationships and do not allow anybody to turn my mum and dad against me. And please do not have my dad book my ticket to leave India on ###. I do not want to leave my cousins; they are the only good thing in my life. Please stop my dad from destroying my happiness and abusing me, I want you to give him a dream or a picture of all my suffering so that he will understand what his daughter has been through. I don't care if you freeze hell to bring justice for me, you put these oppressors right. Never let me be anybody's scapegoat. Such evil people are living with favor, murderers, and rapists and frauds, so you give me their favor, I should have it if they can have it. If you are my father, you lift me before everybody's eyes and give me what I want. I cry every day and have wheezing and low pressure, the only thing I haven't done is killed myself, but I am in so much pain and afraid I may do that. So you do something, solve everything to my favor.
