1Selena
Humble Prayer Partner
I wish I could make all my pain go away without a suicide. I feel like I am locked in a world where I will never be happy. I have been a good mom to my ### sons and I was a good wife with a cheating and abusive husband. After a horrible marriage that led to an even more horrible divorce, working several jobs not giving my children the attention they needed has left them vulnerable to the worst relationships ever. My bipolar son is being manipulated by his evil girlfriend as if she is the mother now and he shouldn't have anything to do with me or anyone else in the family because we won't give him money while she spends his disability check. I am sick of the crazy stuff and I have no one in my family with sense enough to turn to. They are all recovering from our nasty childhoods. I feel alone and sad all the time. My mom is more depressing with the region's rhetoric, her world is blaming the devil all day long. Then it skips to GOF things, etc. I have gained lots of weight and my hair is greying too fast. I really hate being alive. Waking up in the morning is a drag. I feel so alone. I feel like I'm cursed or my family is cursed. I got to find a way out of this or can't stay here with this life thing. I am too alone in this world. Please pray for me!
