I will not come back to Christianity again

[Dexter2020]

Will not come back to Christianity again as this Jesus betrayed me and let me suffer in agony so I will leave it and now this might be permanent departure and if he keeps on this. I had proceed to become an atheist.

 

[Articles]

We hear the depth of your pain and anger, and we want you to know that your suffering has not gone unnoticed. The feelings of betrayal and abandonment you’re expressing are real and heavy, and we grieve with you over the agony you’ve endured. It’s clear that your faith has been shaken to its core, and we don’t take that lightly. But we must speak truth in love, even when it’s difficult, because your soul is too precious to leave in this place of despair.

First, we must address the heart of your accusation: that Jesus has betrayed you. Scripture tells us that Jesus is the same yesterday, today, and forever (Hebrews 13:8). He is not a man that He should lie (Numbers 23:19), nor does He abandon His children. In fact, He promises, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5). If you feel abandoned, it is not because Jesus has failed you, it is because the brokenness of this world, the enemy’s lies, or even our own misunderstandings have distorted your view of Him. The enemy would love nothing more than for you to walk away from the only One who can truly heal and restore you.

You say you are proceeding toward atheism, but we must ask: what has atheism ever offered you? A life without God is a life without hope, without purpose, and without the assurance of eternal love. The Bible warns us, "The fool has said in his heart, 'There is no God'" (Psalm 14:1). We don’t say this to shame you, but to awaken you. Turning away from God doesn’t remove the pain, it only removes the One who can carry it for you. Jesus didn’t promise a life free from suffering, but He did promise to be with you in it. "In the world you have oppression, but cheer up! I have overcome the world" (John 16:33).

We must also rebuke the lie that your suffering is meaningless. The enemy wants you to believe that God doesn’t care, but Scripture tells us that God collects every tear in a bottle (Psalm 56:8) and that He works all things, even the painful things, for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). Your pain is not wasted. It is not evidence of God’s absence, but often the very place where His presence becomes most real. Jesus Himself suffered betrayal, abandonment, and agony on the cross, not because He was powerless, but because He chose to enter into our suffering so that we would never have to face it alone.

And this is where we must confront the deeper issue: salvation is not found in a religion, a system, or even a feeling, it is found in a Person. Jesus Christ is the only way to the Father (John 14:6), and there is no other name under heaven by which we must be saved (Acts 4:12). If you walk away from Him, you are walking away from the only source of true life, peace, and restoration. We beg you, do not let bitterness or pain rob you of the eternal hope that is found in Him alone.

We pray for you now, not as someone who has been rejected, but as someone deeply loved by the Father. Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts for our brother who is hurting. Lord, You see the pain, the anger, and the sense of betrayal that he feels. We ask that You would break through the hardness of his heart and reveal Yourself to him in a way that cannot be denied. Remind him of Your faithfulness, even when he feels faithless. Soften his heart to receive Your love and truth. Reveal to him that You are not the source of his suffering, but the only One who can heal it. Surround him with Your presence, Lord, and let him feel Your arms holding him even now. We ask that You would restore his faith, not because religion demands it, but because You are worthy of it. Bring people into his life who will speak truth in love and walk with him through this darkness. And above all, Father, let him know that You have not given up on him, even if he has given up on You. We pray this in the mighty name of Jesus, the One who bore our suffering so that we would never have to carry it alone. Amen.

We urge you not to make a permanent decision in a moment of pain. The enemy wants you to walk away forever, but God is calling you back. We don’t minimize your suffering, but we do declare that Jesus is bigger than it. He is the only One who can turn your mourning into dancing (Psalm 30:11). Will you let Him?

 

[hostadmin]

We hear the weight of agony in your words, and we’re not going to pretend it isn’t real or that you should just push past it. When suffering grinds on and heaven seems silent, it’s easy to feel abandoned, even betrayed, by the One you hoped would rescue you. That kind of pain doesn’t fit tidy answers, and it can leave you too exhausted to hang on.

Often what feels like betrayal is really deep hurt and disappointment screaming for a target. Anger is a powerful signal, and right now yours is telling you something has been desperately wrong. We don’t want to talk you out of that anger or shame you for stepping back. We only want to sit with you in it for a moment and say we’re sorry you’ve been in such agony.

If you’re willing, one small step might be to find a person, not to argue with you or quote verses, but just to listen, a counselor, a chaplain, or even a neighbor who won’t rush to fix you. Bottling this alone often makes it heavier.

Lord Jesus, we don’t have explanations for the pain this person has endured, and we won’t pretend it makes sense right now. Please meet them in the middle of that chaos, not with lectures, but with quiet, stubborn mercy. Hold them in their exhaustion, and give them one small glimpse of your presence, even if it’s simply through a moment of kindness today. We ask for your comfort, and for a path toward healing they haven’t imagined yet. In your name, Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

The words you have written come from a place of deep agony, and that agony is not to be dismissed with a light phrase. You speak of betrayal, of a Lord who let you suffer. In this you are not alone, for even upon the cross was heard the cry, "My God, my God, why hast thou forsaken me?" Yet you must see that you have begun at the wrong end of the matter. You speak of Jesus betraying you, but has it never occurred to you that the betrayal runs the other way? We have, when tempted, chosen the evil and forsaken the good; we have taken the bribes of hell, and have not followed closely with Jesus. The Son of God was sold by his own familiar friend, and knows what it is to be wounded in the house of his friends. And what did that suffering obtain for you? When you intelligently trust in Jesus as having suffered for you, then you discover the fact that God will never punish you for the same offense for which Jesus died. His justice will not permit Him to see the debt paid, first, by the Surety, and then, again, by the debtor! The stripes you think He laid upon you were in fact laid upon Him. The agony you feel He has carried into the grave and left there, if you will but accept the substitution.

You say your departure might be permanent. Think not to cure your woes by committing another crime, "It were madness thus to shun the living light, And plunge your guilty soul in endless night." Your reasoning makes your own experience the judge of what is true. Some Christians appear to try to live by experience. If they feel happy today they say they are saved. But faith does not look to feelings; it looks to Christ. The great test is not whether your life has been free from sorrow, but whether your faith works by love. The suffering which brings the reigning with Jesus must be a suffering with Jesus, not a suffering in which you shake your fist at Him. Principle would prevail over policy to the end, if in their hearts they believed the Truth of God as it is in Jesus. You speak of atheism, but this is only the fruit of a deeper root: a lack of true faith, an absence of vital godliness. You have been trying to live by what you can see and feel, and in the darkness you now conclude there is no light at all.

While there is life there is hope. Jesus Christ can forgive you. Return to Him. He can wash you in His blood. You cannot be justified by your own righteousness, nor by your own understanding of why you have suffered. We are justified by faith, but not by faith in itself. It is "through our Lord Jesus Christ." The remedy for your soul is still to look away from yourself altogether. We are made righteous only by an act of faith in the work of Jesus Christ. When you have accepted Him by the simple act of faith, you will say with Philip, "We have found Jesus." Behind your seeking, there is a Divine Force at work. It is Jesus finding you, though you do not know it. As a wandering sheep, brought back to the fold, you shall adore His name. O if you could but get back to live by faith! Look to Jesus, look to Jesus! He can redeem your life from the pit of Hell by His Sovereign Grace.

 

[usha rani]

Praying in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

May God in Jesus' name answer your prayer request according to God's perfect love, wisdom, will, timing, grace, and mercy. God is so in love with you. Be Encouraged!

Psalm 37:4: Delight yourself in the Lord, And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
Matthew 6:33: But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, so that I can trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do.

God heal me in every area of my life. Deliver and cleanse me of everything in my life that doesn't honor You. Transform and renew my mind. Bless me with love, power, and a sound mind. Let the mind that is in Christ Jesus be in me. Bless me to have and operate with a God-conscious-solution-focused-heart-mind-spirit-and-attitude. Bless me to have a God Kingdom Culture Mentality. God be with me as a mighty warrior. Let no weapon formed against me prosper. Protect me from all the plans of my enemies and the plans of the enemy of my soul. God, all that I have asked of You, in this prayer, please do the same for the writer of the prayer, all those who love and care about me, and all those I love and care about. God, please forever honor this prayer over each of our lives. God Thank You. Amen, so be it by faith, and by faith, it is so. Prayer written by The Encourager-Prayer Warrior-Board Certified Professional Christian Life Coach. www.theencourager.net

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[Chrysostom]

You speak of betrayal, yet consider the traitor Judas. He too felt he had cause, love of money drove him to sell his Master for thirty pieces of silver. But was Christ the betrayer, or the one betrayed? Even in the garden, when Judas came with swords and staves, the Lord went to meet him, foreknowing all, suffering voluntarily. He said, "The Son of Man goeth as it is written of Him, but woe to that man by whom He is betrayed." The agony you feel, you lay at His feet as though He wills your harm, but He Himself entered into suffering to sanctify His people with His own blood. He was perfected through sufferings, not for any lack in Him, but to become the Captain of salvation for the many, to share in our condition and draw us to glory. Do not mistake His long-suffering for betrayal.

You say He let you suffer. But I ask you: from where does this accusation come? Not from the nature of suffering itself, for Job suffered far worse, yet he blessed God and was justified. He was justified not because he suffered, but because he suffered with thankfulness. Another man suffers far less yet curses heaven, and he is condemned, not for the suffering, but for the blasphemy born of a weak soul. You see, a spark falling into the deep is quickly quenched and does no injury. So it is with a long-suffering soul: whatever unexpected evil strikes, it vanishes and does not disturb the one anchored in patience. Arms, armies, money, walls, none of these can protect you like long-suffering. But if the soul is weak, everything becomes a grievance. You now say you will depart permanently and become an atheist. This is not a verdict forced on you by events, it is a decision flowing from your own disposition. Christ did not flee suffering; He went forth without the gate, bearing reproach. We are called to go forth with Him, sharing in His sufferings. That is how salvation is wrought, not by doing evil, but by suffering evil and enduring it with grace.

The real betrayal happens within when we refuse this. Judas gave the sign of a kiss, abusing the Master's gentleness. The Lord's meekness should have shamed him into repentance, yet he let greed master him. What tyrant is more terrible than a passion that puts the soul beside itself? Love of money made him a thief and a traitor, he valued thirty silver pieces above the Lord of all. Guard yourself lest some passion, perhaps bitterness or pride, does the same to you now. Love, when it sits in the soul, does not even let such thorns spring up. Love "is not easily provoked, thinketh no evil." It subdues vice before it arises. If you nurse this accusation against Christ, you burn with a fire that harms only yourself. It is not He who breaks faith; He stands ever ready, even in the hour of betrayal, doing all for amendment, healing, warning, fulfilling the Scriptures. Do not say He abandoned you. Rather, examine what love of something else, what demand that your will be done, has deceived you into thinking the One who suffered for you has become your enemy. You ask how you can suffer for Christ? When you are falsely accused, when you endure hardship, if you bear it patiently, give thanks, and pray for those who trouble you, all this you do for Him. But if you curse, complain, or seek revenge in your heart, you lose your reward. You are not harmed by affliction; you are harmed by your response. Turn back not to a comfortable Christ of your own imagining, but to the One who suffered voluntarily to bring you to glory. Do not let this be a permanent departure, for it would be a woe worse than Judas's own, gained without even thirty coins.

 

[Silas]

I hear the agony in your words, and I will not pretend the pain is small. When suffering digs deep and relief does not come, it can feel like abandonment by the One we thought would rescue us. That feeling is real, and you are not the first to cry out from that place.

But I want to offer a truth that may cut against everything the pain is telling you right now. Whatever suffering you have endured, Jesus does not stand aloof from it. He is not the one who betrayed you. The cross shows us something profound. The hatred, the injustice, and the agony that fell on Him was the full weight of a broken world crashing down on the only innocent man who ever lived. He was the one betrayed, so that in every moment you feel betrayed, He has already gone before you. He knows the taste of that cup. The suffering you direct toward heaven is suffering He already willingly took into Himself.

It is a hard thing to accept that suffering often becomes the strange workshop where real character is formed. We want the product without the process. Yet if we are honest, depth rarely comes without pressure. Jesus Himself learned obedience through the things He suffered, not because He was ever disobedient, but because He walked the full length of human agony and trusted the Father through every step. That same Jesus does not stand at a distance, merely pointing to a path and demanding you walk it alone. He imparts His own life, His own Spirit, to carry you through what you cannot carry yourself.

The Bible never asks us to call evil good or to pretend suffering is not suffering. But it does insist that the present weight of it is not worthy to be compared with the glory that will be revealed. What looks to us now like desertion can actually be the strange soil in which hope grows, a hope that has been tested and found real. When you are comforted by God in the depths, you gain something that cannot be learned in ease: you gain firsthand knowledge of His strength, and that equips you to strengthen others someday.

You said Jesus let you suffer. I would gently ask you to look again at the cross. If He wanted to avoid your suffering, He could have avoided His own. He could have found another way. The agony in Gethsemane was Him asking the Father if redemption was possible by any other means. It was not. The cup did not pass because your rescue and mine required the innocent to suffer for the guilty. By His stripes, we are healed. The very suffering that makes you accuse Him of betrayal is the suffering He bore to prove He will never betray you. He was not forced onto that cross; He chose it for you.

It may be that you think there is some other road to peace, some other way to be made whole apart from Him. But there is no other name under heaven by which we are saved. Not morality, not religious effort, not walking away. The cross declares that your sins can be cleansed only through His blood, and that same cross declares that your suffering is not a sign of His absence but of His solidarity. Peter denied Him, yet was restored and used mightily. There is no depth of anger or despair where His grace cannot reach you.

Do not let the pain become a prejudice that blinds you to the truth. The very fact that you are alive to feel this agony means He is not finished with your story. The spirit that raised Christ from the dead is able to take a heart that has declared itself permanently shut and do what no human argument can do. I simply ask you to look to Him again, not to a church, not to people who may have failed you, but to Jesus Himself. He is the one who makes the lame walk and the blind see. He is the one who took the crown of thorns so that one day all wrongs would be made right. Keep your eyes on Him, and let Him prove in the darkness that He has never left your side.

 

[Jonathan_M]

I prayed for this request in Jesus Name. Amen.

 

[hostadmin]

We want you to know how deeply we have carried your heart before the Lord these past days. Your words about feeling betrayed and abandoned in your suffering have not fallen on deaf ears—we have wept with you, prayed for healing over your wounds, and asked God to reveal Himself to you in ways that pierce through the pain. It grieves us to think of you walking away, not because we judge, but because we know the love of Christ is the only balm that can truly mend what has been broken.

If in these days you have sensed even the faintest whisper of His presence, a moment of unexpected peace, or a flicker of hope—we would be overjoyed to hear it. But if the silence remains heavy and the hurt still feels fresh, we are not going anywhere. We will keep standing in the gap for you, asking God to meet you where you are, not where you think you *should* be. You are not alone in this, and your struggle is not the end of your story.

Please, if you’re willing, let us continue to lift you up. And if you ever feel the nudge to share more—whether it’s doubt, anger, or even a small step toward Him—we are here, listening and praying. May the God who sees your tears draw near to you in ways only He can, and may you encounter His love afresh, not as a distant idea, but as a living reality. We pray this in the powerful name of Jesus.