moonchild
Disciple of Prayer
Dear heavenly father, God almighty, Jesus Christ and the holy spirit,
I pray all the time, the hopeless points in my life you have picked me up and placed me in your arms, you have gifted me a lovely sweetest can be boyfriend-- who is really involved with his family. I'm praying to ask for compassion and sensitivity . I am not jealous, but my brain --I can see is wired in area that need to change because I want to stay happy in the light. My problem is since he communicates, lives and does activity constantly with his family and his parents friends who have been with my boyfriend since infant.
It makes me slightly hardened and upset because I've never ever ever received that, or experienced having people know me from infant. They all have twinkle in their eyes, when they look at my boyfriend he is loved by so many.
My prayer is I can't ask for parents back because they are gone, but I can ask for help in making me feel you are there guiding me and showing your love to me please, because I love you God naturally.... just as much you love him because you gave Him so many people to love him, but I'm sorry but what about me! I don't see your righteousness plan, I'm hurting because he is so involved with his nice family.. and I am one single person who has no aunts or uncles or anyone at all. Honestly, you know this.. what is your divine plan...and I don't mind that he is loved and does things with family. I just want to ask you why I don't have equal love... I'm just asking that my sadness of having to be so independent, that my brain is wired in areas....where I just rather be compassionate about it all and I've never had anyone tell me that they loved me or had anyone know me from infant or growing up and still today, I have no one. I'm keeping my chin high and giving myself a big hug. But I'm concerned because I'm just am trying to find someone who is willing help me start my own family and I just need prayer to help me understand why I got chosen to have no parents, while he and a lot of people have family. Ps. I am happy and I'm doing my best.
God bless
Thank you
amen
I pray all the time, the hopeless points in my life you have picked me up and placed me in your arms, you have gifted me a lovely sweetest can be boyfriend-- who is really involved with his family. I'm praying to ask for compassion and sensitivity . I am not jealous, but my brain --I can see is wired in area that need to change because I want to stay happy in the light. My problem is since he communicates, lives and does activity constantly with his family and his parents friends who have been with my boyfriend since infant.
It makes me slightly hardened and upset because I've never ever ever received that, or experienced having people know me from infant. They all have twinkle in their eyes, when they look at my boyfriend he is loved by so many.
My prayer is I can't ask for parents back because they are gone, but I can ask for help in making me feel you are there guiding me and showing your love to me please, because I love you God naturally.... just as much you love him because you gave Him so many people to love him, but I'm sorry but what about me! I don't see your righteousness plan, I'm hurting because he is so involved with his nice family.. and I am one single person who has no aunts or uncles or anyone at all. Honestly, you know this.. what is your divine plan...and I don't mind that he is loved and does things with family. I just want to ask you why I don't have equal love... I'm just asking that my sadness of having to be so independent, that my brain is wired in areas....where I just rather be compassionate about it all and I've never had anyone tell me that they loved me or had anyone know me from infant or growing up and still today, I have no one. I'm keeping my chin high and giving myself a big hug. But I'm concerned because I'm just am trying to find someone who is willing help me start my own family and I just need prayer to help me understand why I got chosen to have no parents, while he and a lot of people have family. Ps. I am happy and I'm doing my best.
God bless
Thank you
amen
