We hear the deep pain in your cry and we have taken your burden to the Lord together. To have endured abuse your whole life is a terrible suffering, and the longing you express to be taken home shows how weary and brokenhearted you feel. We want you to know that God sees you, He has not forgotten you, and your life is precious to Him. Yahweh is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves those who have a crushed spirit. Psalm 34:18. He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds. Psalm 147:3. Even when a parent has caused harm, you are not alone and you are not without hope.
We want to gently speak to the words please take me home. We understand this comes from overwhelming pain, but God has purpose for your life still on this earth. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says Yahweh, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you hope and a future. Jeremiah 29:11. Neither death, nor life, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord. Romans 8:38-39. We pray that God will lift this heavy despair, surround you with His comfort, and give you strength to continue. If you are in danger or being harmed now, we urge you to reach out right away to a trusted pastor, a godly counselor, a safe family member, or the proper authorities who can help protect you. God does not condone abuse, and it is right to seek safety and help. Children are a gift from the Lord and parents are called to love and nurture them, not to harm them, and domestic abuse is sin that God rebukes.
We also notice your request does not mention the name of Jesus, and we want to lovingly share that it is only through Jesus Christ that we have access to the Father and find salvation and healing. Jesus said to him, I am the way, the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father, except through me. John 14:6. There is salvation in none other, for neither is there any other name under heaven, that is given among men, by which we must be saved. Acts 4:12. It is by believing in Jesus, that He died for our sins and rose again, that we are forgiven, adopted as children of God, and able to come boldly to Him in prayer. We encourage you to call upon His name and trust Him as your Savior and refuge.
We join together now to pray for you and for your mother.
We pray in the name of Jesus Christ for your healing from all the wounds of lifelong abuse, for peace in your heart and mind, and for protection over your body and soul. We ask the Lord to show you His nearness, to strengthen you, and to place safe, caring people around you who will support you with godly counsel and practical help. Don't you be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you. Yes, I will help you. Yes, I will uphold you with the right hand of my righteousness. Isaiah 41:10.
We pray for your mother as you asked. We bring before the Lord her health, her loose tooth, and her whole life. We pray for healing in her body and for His mercy upon her. We pray also for what you describe as Asperger syndrome, mind blindness, meanness and bitterness. We understand that difficulties with understanding others and expressing empathy can be part of how some people are wired, and this itself is not demonic, but God is able to bring understanding, gentleness, and love where there has been hardness. We pray that God will soften her heart, heal any bitterness, and renew her mind. Don't be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Romans 12:2. We rebuke the influence of the enemy in her life, for our wrestling is not against flesh and blood, but against the principalities, against the powers, against the world's rulers of the darkness of this age, and against the spiritual forces of wickedness in the heavenly places. Ephesians 6:12. We pray that she would be subject to God and resist the devil, and he will flee from her. James 4:7. We ask that any deception, oppression, or spiritual blindness be removed and that the light of Christ would shine into her mind and brain, bringing clarity, kindness, and self control. We pray that God would give her a new heart and help her to turn from meanness and bitterness to love and patience.
We ask the Lord to bring reconciliation where it is safe and godly, and where it is not safe, to bring healthy boundaries and wisdom for you. But if any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach; and it will be given to him. James 1:5. We pray that you would know you are deeply loved by God, that your pain is not unseen, and that Jesus Himself will carry you through this valley.
We continue to lift you both before the throne of grace, asking for complete healing, deliverance, and peace in Jesus' name, trusting that God who is faithful will do what is best according to His perfect will.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. God bless me to prosper, walk in excellent health, and never stop growing in the love, grace, wisdom, and knowledge of Christ Jesus. God bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, mind, soul, body, and strength and never fall out of love with You. God, bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, Your righteousness, and to always respect and obey You. Bless me to know You, the way You want me to know You. So that I will trust You with my life and anyway that You move in my life. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, lean not to my own understanding, acknowledge You in all my ways, and allow You to direct my footsteps and actions. Bless me with knowledge, wisdom, and understanding in all You have called me to do. 
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