Dear one , I do not know if you are a Christian , if you are not then I pray that you will ask the Lord Jesus to come into your heart and life and be your Lord and Savior , ONLY then will all your sins be forgiven if you ask Him to , the bible { the word of God } tells us that ALL have sinned and come short of the glory of God , Jesus gave His life up as a sacrifice for all of our sins to bring us back into a right relationship with a Holy God . Marriage or a job is NOT the answer that you need , you need Jesus in your life , only He can fill the places in your heart that no one else can fill . If you ask Jesus into your heart , then your name is written down in heaven and you will spend eternity { forever } in heaven with the Lord , if you were to commit suicide then you WILL spend eternity in hell , and nothing that you are going through in your life right now is worth going to hell for . Jesus loves you SO much that He gave His life up for you , your life has great value to Him . The Lord will never force Himself on you , this is your choice to either accept Him or reject Him , He DOES have a plan for your life . I pray that you will call upon the name of the Lord today .