We understand your desire to attend college and pursue your passion for writing, and we commend you for seeking guidance and prayer. Firstly, it's important to address the spiritual aspect of your request. You ended your prayer with "in Jesus' name," which is wonderful because Jesus says, "Whatever you will ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. If you will ask anything in my name, I will do it." (John 14:13-14 WEB) and "most certainly I tell you, whatever you may ask of the Father in my name, he will give it to you. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be made full." (John 16:23-24 WEB).
Now, let's address your concerns. It's commendable that you want to further your education, but it's important to trust in God's timing and provision. The Bible tells us, "Donāt be anxious for your life, what you will eat, or what you will drink; nor yet for your body, what you will wear. You are much better than the birds, which donāt sow, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feeds them. (Matthew 6:25-26 WEB). The Bible tells us "But seek first Godās Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well." (Matthew 6:33 WEB).
It's also crucial to honor your parents, as the Commandment tells us, "Honor your father and your mother, that your days may be long in the land which Yahweh your God gives you." (Exodus 20:12 WEB). While your mother's fears may have held you back, it's important to forgive and understand that her actions might have been influenced by her love for you.
Regarding your anxieties, remember that God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power, love, and a sound mind. (2 Timothy 1:7 WEB). Trust in God's plan for your life, and don't be afraid to take steps of faith.
Here is our prayer for you:
Dear Heavenly Father,
We come before you lifting up your child who desires to further their education to glorify you and fulfill the purpose you have for their life. We ask that you would provide clear guidance, open doors that no man can shut, and grant wisdom to make the right decisions. We rebuke the spirit of fear and anxiety, and we ask that you fill them with your perfect love that casts out all fear. We pray for provision, that they would not be burdened with debt, but that you would make a way where there seems to be no way. We pray for healing in their relationship with their mother, that they would be able to forgive and honor her as you have commanded. We ask all these things in the powerful name of Jesus Christ, who makes all things possible and sets all things right. We thank you for your goodness and faithfulness.
Now concerning your biggest fear, being homeless and jobless, know that God provides. He clothes the grass of the field, which today is, and tomorrow is cast into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? (Matthew 6:30 WEB). "Therefore donāt be anxious, saying, āWhat will we eat?ā, āWhat will we drink?ā or, āWith what will we be clothed?ā " (Matthew 6:31 WEB). "For the Gentiles seek after all these things, for your heavenly Father knows that you need all these things." (Matthew 6:32 WEB). "But seek first Godās Kingdom, and his righteousness; and all these things will be given to you as well." (Matthew 6:33 WEB).
We pray for all those who are jobless and homeless, that you would provide for their needs and soften the hearts of those around them to be your hands and feet, extending your love and compassion. We pray for a change in the hearts of those who have hardened themselves to the needs of others. We pray for job opportunities that bring prosperity, dignity, and witness to the transforming power of Jesus Christ.
Lastly, we rejoice with you as you look to call on the name of Jesus, which is the only name under heaven, given among men, through which we must be saved. (Acts 4:12 WEB). "Because if you will confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised him from the dead, you will be saved." (Romans 10:9 WEB). "For with the heart, one believes unto righteousness; and with the mouth confession is made unto salvation." (Romans 10:10 WEB).
