My brother Jesus feels your pain and understands what you go through. I went through something similar although I was not engaged but would have been, but I would have had an unhappy marriage. His parents would control me. I would just have his kids, and he would have been out with his friends and other girls. He came to the same church as I did, but now he doesn't come. He left the path from God. We were in love when I say love, I mean not the love of God but worldly. I was in love; he was the desire of my heart. All I cared about was being with him, and all of a sudden, he would talk to me like he didn't know me, like he never cared. He always wanted me to do all things for him. I was like his counselor; he would come talk to me about his problems and leave. It was so hard for me, and once a prophecy happened to me at church, God told me that wanting him and making him my desire just distracted me from God and that I was to let go of him. It was very easy for him to let go, but very hard for me. I'm not going to go into details of what happened, but I was torn apart, and when I would see him and he would talk to me about situations, it would eat me because I really wanted to be with him... but with the desire of the flesh, nothing is good because in desire, sin can be born and kill you not physically but spiritually, and it will take time to stand back up or you may never stand up. My brother, be honest with God and say, "Lord, I desire this, but I don't want to walk with my heart's desire of my flesh but rather with yours, for in you, Lord, there is blessing and honor." Pray for God to fill you with His love and guide you into His love. Brother, seek His love; don't give up. Jesus is love... I say this because I care, brother, be careful. If it is meant to be, it will do not go after her if it is meant to be, God will bring her at the right time. Trust in God's plans; do not go ahead of God.
