I shouldn't feel this way

[Sad mommy of two]

It's been thirteen years since he walked away without a look back. Thirteen years of moving on slowly but never really. Thirteen years of holding my head high when all I wanted to do was hang it low and cry. Thirteen years of me loving someone else who never really loved me back. Thirteen years of a bad marriage to a man who could care less and yet two beautiful children produced from that marriage so I hold no regrets. Thirteen years of accepting that he moved on, married someone else and had children of his own. Thirteen years ago that sixteen year old girl watched him walk away and never come back...

Now he's divorced and suddenly pops back in to my life unexpected. After thirteen years of wondering I can see him and see how beautiful his children are. All I want is a friendship with someone who I once loved dearly but missed my best friend more than anything. I am praying that God will at least grant me this. After being married to an abusive husband for ten years and being faithful the whole way through despite his infedelities I just need my friend from way back when back in my life. I now have that chance but it seems he may not want it.

I truly need him back in my life, someone to comfort me when the answers wont come easy. My soul has been half since he left and without his friendship it'll never be whole. Yet he wont return my phone call or email. I wont act desperate for his friendship but I miss him so much. Please pray that God will see how important this is to me and to my life and bring him back in a positive way to influence my life and my happiness in a good way.

I have stayed true to my faith through this marriage, through the beatings, through the criticism and the tear downs. I have prayed for this for so long... yet if he wont talk to me, it was for nothing. I need my friend back in my life. Please ... pray for me.

Thanks.

 

[silentangel]

Sad mommy of two - You seem to be living in the past, with fantasies of a teenager. I encourage you today to put all this in the Lord's hands. No good can come from this.

The Lord has plans for your life and you can't move on until you let go of the past.

Lord Jesus, I lift up this lost soul to you. I pray for deliverance from a fantasy of a 16 year old teenager. The love she had moved out of her life and it's time for her to move on and find another, someone who wants to be with her, someone who will care for her and her children, someone who will sweep her off her feet. Let her look for a godly man to be the head of her household. Show her the way Lord. I know you have plans for her life and I pray you help her to take that first step. Lord, I pray you would open her eyes, that you would instill wisdom in her and give her the strength to move on. Thank you, Lord. Amen

 

[Dion]

Lord, i'm in total agreement with patti prayer for sad mommy......in jesus name amen