Dear one , sometimes our problems are from our own making , God is never to blame for decisions that we have made and not asked Him for His wisdom first . You are listening to the lies of the enemy of your soul , the bible tells us that he is the father of all lies , he wants you to believe that the Lord does not care for you , nothing could be further from the truth . If you are a Christian , then you are a child of God and He is your heavenly Father and He will never leave or forsake you , His love for you is unconditional and it will never fail you . Let me suggest that you call upon His holy name , ask Him what He would have you do concerning your circumstances . satan wants you to loose hope and reject God , you need to know that Jesus IS our only hope in this lost and fallen world . Nothing is impossible with God , you need only to trust Him . You will be in my prayers , please do not give up on the Lord because He will NEVER give up on you , you were worth Jesus going to the cross for . BLESSINGS !