I Really Want To Die

[EAndersen]

I'm tired. If you checked my past posts you'll see I've been through a lot and I'm just done. My ex-fiance is out there with other people in her bed, she's told me about it to hurt me and push me away while I sit here and am faithful and forgiving and I try to move on but God keeps pulling me back to her even though I only get hurt. I'm tired. When I'm selfish I suffer, when I'm selfless I suffer more, and I still try to do the latter despite that. I just want to go asleep and not wake up. I've prayed for everything I can think of. For new love, for her to come back, for a sign, for hope, for others, anything... I beg for help but I haven't been given a clear sign. I know I'm flawed but I've always kept extra hard on myself and said I'm worse than I am. The truth is I'm almost squeaky clean for things I've done wrong because I've done the right thing no matter how much it hurt. Even after having no role models, and being physically tortured as a child, and abused through my entire youth I somehow managed to only want what's good for others. All I want to do is help others and share my love with a woman who can appreciate it... I pray to God it's Sara and that she returns to me soon... or that I'm brought someone who loves me even more and can be even better to me... because I really can't take being hurt and disappointed anymore. I seriously just want to go to sleep and not wake up at this point. Help me.

 

[Articles]

May God hear your request and grant it according to his will. In Jesus Name, Amen.

 

[The Encourager]

I have prayed. I have asked God to honor your prayer request in Jesus’ name. May God bless you with the desires of your heart that is the will of God for your life. Keep your focus on God and stay prayerful.

Let’s Pray: God I ask in Jesus’ name, “Lay Your Hands Upon Me. Bless me with the spirit, attitude, and wisdom of Joshua. That same spirit of obedience to You, faith in You and Your Word, trusting You, and courage in spite of the spirit of fear trying to conquer him that Joshua had let it rest upon me and within me. Bless me with the spirit and the heart of Joshua. Bless me with that spirit of excellence. God as You were with Joshua Lord please be with me. Let Your presence always dwell with me. God all that I have asked of You in this prayer do the same for the writer of this prayer and all those I love and care about.

Encourager Linda Flagg, LM, CS

Christian Life Coach & Youth Minister

 

[3Nathansalways]

Dear one take hold of God and look on Him today. Take your eyes off the circumstances, the ex and family and go into Gods presence not asking not wanting not begging just wait and listen for His word and ask God to fill you with HIs peace. Dear Father I ask that you go into the room of Anderson and surround him and hold him, remove all distractions and let him hear your voice, fill him with your peace and your desires and the will to live,, and give me renew his mind and restore his thoughts. Give him new life again in you and bless his life his family and keep him in your hands, we also rebuke all thoughts of suicide and command them to leave in Jesus Name, AMEN.God is in control let HIm have His way. AMEN

 

[mysticcricket]

Dear child of God you are hurting but you must move on think of Christs dying on the cross realize you have great potential to serve Christ and find a new love even better than the last. Remember you are in the temple of the Lord he is your body he needs you to give him control read the bible and concentrate on positive verses you will come out a WINNER and you will thrive here on earth with the love of Christ in your heart and him by your side. I am praying for your turn around and I know you are loved............By many... Amen,