Cowgirl
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I pray to God. I pray to God through Jesus Christ's name. I pray to Jesus the Christ. I have never heard their voice. I have heard others say God told them, God spoke to them or God said unto them. I ask them what does God sound like? I am told he sounds compassionate, loving and strong. I have asked what did he say to you or under what circumstances arose that he needed to speak with you? I have heard those on TV say, and God said to me to be thankful... I have never heard God's voice. I have heard my own thoughts talk back to me in my head where no one can hear my own thoughts. Is that, my own thoughts talking through what is or what I should or should not do, God's voice or my own. If it was God's how come I did not realize it? I am a 60-year-old Christian woman. I am a good person. I do not try to hurt others, on the contrary I try and help others. I do not lie, cheat or steal. I do not envy others, I do not break the 10 Commandments. I basically mind my own business, as I have lots to do such as, take care of my son who seems to get worse and not better. He takes 1 step forward and 2 steps back, 1 step forward and 3 steps back. Oh, I see him take a step forward and I thank God and then He takes 2 steps back, losing ground. He is always losing ground. He hears voices others cannot hear. He sees things others cannot see. I have seen lights follow him. Wild animals follow him they come to him and he picks up wild forest animals and brings them to the barn and helps them get better, wild birds drop out of the sky in front of him, wild rabbits hop out of the brush towards him, wild squirrels fall from the trees at his feet, stray cats come up the long road to our house. He takes care of all of them, nursing them back to health and releases them eventually or finds homes for the domesticated ones. He can walk up to the neighbor's bull and pet it like it was a dog when it has gotten out of the neighbor's pasture and moseyed over to our place and he can get it to walk with it back towards its farm with his cane, the bull is not afraid of his cane. AND YET HE CAN NOT TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF. Lights follow him around. Lights can come out of nowhere and in a flash they are gone he stands there and my sister is screaming running. Large white balls of light appeared at an abandoned farmhouse we had gone to look at thinking of buying and the realtor refused to go there but gave us permission to go there ourselves and look it over. Walking through & around the old Civil War house I felt dizzy almost sick the air was stagnant. We were on the second floor looking out the south window. A big white ball of light floated up and hovered face level with my son directly in front of him. My sister ran screaming, her husband was behind her. I was behind him and I looked back and saw my son just standing there. I have taken pictures over the last 6 years and there are always a blurry lighter area over his shoulder. I have seen tiny white lights floating around or near him in the twilight as he comes up from the barn. I have seen near or around him and he sees small white and green lights I thought could have been lightning bugs only the lights do not blink. Pictures of him usually have large white balls of light near him if there is not a blurry lighter area somewhere in the pic. Why is that? Sometimes they only show up in the picture. And that is not with the same camera. Different cameras over 6 years. It has been 6 years he has been out of the military. Yes he was injured but cannot remember much about it. But he does remember being hurt by others. He is tortured by memories. He has nightmares & daymares. He suffers audio & visual hallucinations, he has difficulty understanding and remembering and has fallen prey to others as he does not think on the same level as those in the outside world. He is not mean and has been set up for failure by others. My questions are could the things he sees that I do not see could those good things be Heavenly and the bad things be the devil. Could the voices he hears, the good things he hears be God and the scary things he hears be the devil. The positive good always wins over the negative bad. He hears a voice telling him to shoot himself but he hears a voice that is good telling him not to. Is this his mind talking or could they be good & evil talking to him. He sees dead people. People he knows are dead are walking among us he used to tell us when he saw them but anymore he just keeps it to himself, we can see it come over him but he does not want to upset us when we ask him if he is alright. He says his number was up long ago but God is letting him stay but the Devil is always trying to get him to end it. Is he delusional or could this really be happening. He does not confide in the VA about all that goes through his head. He does not like being in a hospital bc they will put him in the psych ward when he tells them the what is going on in his mind. What does everyone think of this? Could the good be God as he says so or is he delusional? Could the bad and scary be evil or is he delusional? We have seen other things and he has certainly experienced other things. We do not know what to think. How do we know if things are for the most part in his head or really happening to him? There are unusual things around. Please help pray for his peace of mind as others torture him, scare him, and persecute. Please pray to God to Bless him with Mercy & Grace Please pray to God to Bless him with Wisdom & strength. Please pray God Blesses him with Divine Intervention. In Jesus Christ's name I pray. Amen.
