Hoekun
Disciple of Prayer
I pray because the one I decided to marry needs prayer. I have tolerated YEARS of verbal, emotional, and at times physical abuse from the one who vowed to uplift me. The daily verbal and emotional torments were fine till they began to spill over onto family. He has been a force to be wreckened with having us walking on eggshells only not to set his aggressions. I have even been pulled out of despair thanks to your mercy father. I have not had a friend, partner, dreamer, builder, honest husband since day one I am beginning to believe. He knew who he was and fabricated another persona and lucked out finding a broken me. He has seen many tears and acknowledges faults yet responsibility that changes never comes with the "apologies". I seek escape for us in everything I do to protect our hearts and future. I know that this is bigger than me and refuge in your word. This that I must decide I fear my spirit has decided already and I request aid. I feel lonely in this due to being an empath and many times than none feel overwhelmed
. I desire to not only love my children but LOVE my children and protect them from any more toxicity. I have poured myself into the aid of MANY and ask father for support to walk OUT of this whole. You can define what I have no patience to utter anymore... the inner goodness my empathy sees and the war within him that fails to shine enough it uplifts. Please help me to be the love and light within that would emit love and light, heal. Why do I miss a heaven I have never been? Why do I see and feel what others never comprehend? Who am I? Please help me understand so that I do and not run from the questionable me? Why do I not connect with literally anyone? I never sleep father that I would recall rejuvenant. Is rest only for the dead? I have this opportunity WITH my heart as emotionally it aches deeply to my very core yet I do not see the way ear enough to decide. I pray for clarity in what this flesh fights to admit. In Jesus Christ name... please forgive me,, Amen.
. I desire to not only love my children but LOVE my children and protect them from any more toxicity. I have poured myself into the aid of MANY and ask father for support to walk OUT of this whole. You can define what I have no patience to utter anymore... the inner goodness my empathy sees and the war within him that fails to shine enough it uplifts. Please help me to be the love and light within that would emit love and light, heal. Why do I miss a heaven I have never been? Why do I see and feel what others never comprehend? Who am I? Please help me understand so that I do and not run from the questionable me? Why do I not connect with literally anyone? I never sleep father that I would recall rejuvenant. Is rest only for the dead? I have this opportunity WITH my heart as emotionally it aches deeply to my very core yet I do not see the way ear enough to decide. I pray for clarity in what this flesh fights to admit. In Jesus Christ name... please forgive me,, Amen.
