Gary , you are feeling this way because that is what the enemy of your soul { satan } wants you to think , the word of God { the bible } tells us that he comes only to steal , kill , and to destroy , he wants to put distance between you and the Lord . Let me say that God loves you Gary SO much that He sent His Son to die on the cross to forgive us all of our sins { the bible tells us that ALL have sinned and come short of the glory of God } and sin separates us from a Holy God , Jesus gave His life to bring us back in right relationship with God the Father . You are VERY important to Him , He loves you with an everlasting love . If you haven't already sincerely asked Jesus to come into your heart to be your Lord and Savior and asked Him to forgive you of your sins and repented { turned away from sin } then I pray that you will do this before the day is over . Your name will be written down in heaven and you will spend an eternity with the Lord . You will never regret giving this all over to God , you will become His child and you can count on Him NEVER to fail you . Blessings !