Laenyore
Disciple of Prayer
I need urgent prayers for mercy, grace, wisdom, and courage from our Lord Jesus Christ. I suffer from Bipolar Depression. Every day I wake up I start the day in fear, anxiety, depression, and stress. I suffer to function normally. I feel like a failure, a disappointment, and live in shame. I suffer to handle shocks and lack courage and tenacity. I am a born again Christian even though I am contemplating suicide every day of my life. I am suffering financially as the only breadwinner of two outstanding daughters because my illness cost me my job and damaged my career and the good name I had before I was diagnosed in ### and spent ### weeks in a mental hospital. People now treat me like a mentally unstable person and make derogatory remarks behind my back, which hurts me, caused my self-esteem to plummet, and I am now only a shadow of myself, deeply flawed with a non-existing self-esteem of the broken "non-person" I believe I am. I am shunned by people who were previously my so-called friends and colleagues. I am in desperate need of help. I need urgent Godly intervention.