perhaps this isn't a curse...perhaps this is a blessing?.....maybe a warning?....aren't you ready to be with your Saviour?...don't you know that being with the Lord Jesus in paradise is far greater than being anywhere else?....we are living in the end times...all hell has broken out on this planet and it's only going to get worse.......remember...to live...is to live for Christ...to die...is to be....with Christ....I long so to be with Him.......but it is He who controls my living and my passing into the next realm...not me......so I will be patient and wait until He is ready to bring me home where I so long to be...use what time you have left to get even closer to your Maker.....strengthen your love and desire for Jesus and in doing so He will bless you with His peace and with a strong and loving desire for Him over this evil world we live in today...God bless you and keep you and if He desires to heal you with a miracle and lengthen your days here on Earth...so be it....###