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teddybear
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It is Canadian Thanksgiving and we have SO MUCH to be thankful for.
And, Father I am thankful for every little thing that has improved.
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But, I am also afraid. I need a financial miracle.
I want so much to find a way to pay off our debt load.
My husband works a full time job off the farm and is away four days and nights and then home for four. He tries to farm on those days off. But, he is growing weary. He has the flu right now.
I feel it is not fair for Dan, my husband to have to work so hard.
My father-in law (76 ) helps out which sometime makes things worse as he crashes into things and our farm is in disarray.
The tension is so thick here that it would take more like a chain saw to cut it.
Our marriage is not good, but I stay, I have nothing or nowhere to go.
I have no savings, so I stay wishing I could love him. But, I am sad that we are always hanging on a thin line. My daughter says she wishes we loved each other. There is always fighting. Most about money, my husband gets mad when I do not pay the bills. But, I do not know which ones to pay, and am afraid to bounce cheques. So, it goes in circles. blame on blame.
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I want to help, I like to work, I need to find something to do that would help out but not drain me. I need direction. My skills are old. My references are old. I quit the last two good jobs I had because I could not work the hours, and became too too tired. (I say good, as in fun, but the pay is minimum wage which does not really help too much.)
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Father God, I ask for a miracle in our lives. Both in our finances and in our relationship. I want to love my husband. I have been asking to love him but I don't seem to be able to. I play the part, I say the words, BUT I do not feel it. I so want to feel love for him!:tinysmile_cry_t4:
I ask that I get more organized each day so this home will be organized and peaceful. And, I ask You to find a job that I can do and would enjoy doing. I need a gift as I am not really good at anything. I am a 49 year baby who never succeeded at anything.
I am asking for forgiveness for the times when I spent money carelessly or needlessly. I am asking for forgiveness for living without awareness.
I am asking for forgiveness for not keeping our office in order.
I ask You now Father, to direct my path, at home, and to something that will help our finances. I can not live like this anymore. I hate living in shame.
In Jesus name AMEN. bev
And, Father I am thankful for every little thing that has improved.
....................................
But, I am also afraid. I need a financial miracle.
I want so much to find a way to pay off our debt load.
My husband works a full time job off the farm and is away four days and nights and then home for four. He tries to farm on those days off. But, he is growing weary. He has the flu right now.
I feel it is not fair for Dan, my husband to have to work so hard.
My father-in law (76 ) helps out which sometime makes things worse as he crashes into things and our farm is in disarray.
The tension is so thick here that it would take more like a chain saw to cut it.
Our marriage is not good, but I stay, I have nothing or nowhere to go.
I have no savings, so I stay wishing I could love him. But, I am sad that we are always hanging on a thin line. My daughter says she wishes we loved each other. There is always fighting. Most about money, my husband gets mad when I do not pay the bills. But, I do not know which ones to pay, and am afraid to bounce cheques. So, it goes in circles. blame on blame.
.............
I want to help, I like to work, I need to find something to do that would help out but not drain me. I need direction. My skills are old. My references are old. I quit the last two good jobs I had because I could not work the hours, and became too too tired. (I say good, as in fun, but the pay is minimum wage which does not really help too much.)
.............
Father God, I ask for a miracle in our lives. Both in our finances and in our relationship. I want to love my husband. I have been asking to love him but I don't seem to be able to. I play the part, I say the words, BUT I do not feel it. I so want to feel love for him!:tinysmile_cry_t4:
I ask that I get more organized each day so this home will be organized and peaceful. And, I ask You to find a job that I can do and would enjoy doing. I need a gift as I am not really good at anything. I am a 49 year baby who never succeeded at anything.
I am asking for forgiveness for the times when I spent money carelessly or needlessly. I am asking for forgiveness for living without awareness.
I am asking for forgiveness for not keeping our office in order.
I ask You now Father, to direct my path, at home, and to something that will help our finances. I can not live like this anymore. I hate living in shame.
In Jesus name AMEN. bev
