Megeimma
Disciple of Prayer
Hi my name is ###, I came here desperately searching for prayer to regain feelings in my heart I had evil blasphemous thoughts I would never act on intrusive thoughts and by impulse at times I would think them then suddenly I felt something in my heart. I'm not sure it's the unforgivable sin I don't think so but I have little to no feeling in my heart I need Jesus to help me feel those again. I want to continue to serve the Lord and follow Jesus's teachings even in this state. I humbly ask that you pray for my healing that I need. I love God but I can't prove it if my heart is unfeeling of emotion even with Jesus in my life guiding me I had little emotion but he gave just enough, so now I feel empty. I am also afraid to sin and do not want to sin. I want to have the energy as before. I thought I knew God and then I decided I wanted to know him more and trying to understand him more by reading his word. I took out things in my life that I was living in sin as a Christian and didn't realize how bad it actually was. Now I had blasphemous thoughts and learned there was actually a sin that cannot be forgiven which is scary and like a week ago and thought the worst thing about God possible and I had conviction in my heart but I don't have that feeling anymore it's like it left my chest. I believe this a hardened heart I am asking desperately for prayers to help. I believe Jesus is Lord and I still want to use my new knowledge of God to live life according to the word but I am also ### and it's hard for me to understand certain things. I need prayers and reassurance to keep my mind calm I have been freaking out over this.

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.