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teddybear
Guest
Dear Father, I come to You again and again and I feel like a broken record. I do not know what say or ask. I need help with my life.
I have no energy. I have no mind. I find everything that should be simple - hard. And, little things that are a part of everyone's life hard.
I can not get my house cleaned, laundry done, or life together. I am tired. I take my meds for this and that and just can't fiqure out why I cant seem to force myself to do what I should. I do not know if my brain bleed, thyroid, adreanal, pms, or what is to blame. I try every vitamin and med that my doctor prescribes and still can't seem to get there.
I find the mess too too big for me. And, I have trained my daughter well. She is not a help to me. She likes to bake and cook but leaves the mess for me to clean up, and it is messier than it has to be. I am extremely discouraged.
I have no energy to make friends.
I hate the drive to town to see anyone. by the time i get groceries which i also find hard, i am spent.
I am lonely, bored, and do not have any hopes for the furture to be any different.
I can not work outside the home unless my brain starts working again, and that does not seem to be a realistic goal. I am better, but not enough to be counted on.
I will have a good day, and then ten bad days. I do not like living on a farm or the driving it involves to do anything.
I am alone 4 days and then my hubbie comes home for four. He is tired then and sleeps mostly.
i am not sure what to do.
I need help oh Lord. Please hear me.
I am so sad, I am not sure why I am alive even. I have no purpose. I affect no one positively. I am a failure at everything.
bev
I have no energy. I have no mind. I find everything that should be simple - hard. And, little things that are a part of everyone's life hard.
I can not get my house cleaned, laundry done, or life together. I am tired. I take my meds for this and that and just can't fiqure out why I cant seem to force myself to do what I should. I do not know if my brain bleed, thyroid, adreanal, pms, or what is to blame. I try every vitamin and med that my doctor prescribes and still can't seem to get there.
I find the mess too too big for me. And, I have trained my daughter well. She is not a help to me. She likes to bake and cook but leaves the mess for me to clean up, and it is messier than it has to be. I am extremely discouraged.
I have no energy to make friends.
I hate the drive to town to see anyone. by the time i get groceries which i also find hard, i am spent.
I am lonely, bored, and do not have any hopes for the furture to be any different.
I can not work outside the home unless my brain starts working again, and that does not seem to be a realistic goal. I am better, but not enough to be counted on.
I will have a good day, and then ten bad days. I do not like living on a farm or the driving it involves to do anything.
I am alone 4 days and then my hubbie comes home for four. He is tired then and sleeps mostly.
i am not sure what to do.
I need help oh Lord. Please hear me.
I am so sad, I am not sure why I am alive even. I have no purpose. I affect no one positively. I am a failure at everything.
bev