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Jenny712
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I need prayer and help. One hobby I have is to read the Sherlock Holmes mysteries. I really enjoy them. I know there is nothing wrong with a hobby, but the thing is it's taken over my life. What I mean is I've fallen into obsessing over Sherlock Holmes. I only wanted to have Sherlock Holmes as a hobby because, as I said, I do enjoy the mysteries. But it's become where I'm watching the Jeremy Brett version of it on a daily basis and I'm looking at pictures of Jeremy Brett as Sherlock Holmes for many hours every day. I'm daydreaming of Sherlock Holmes a lot, and I can see that my prayer life and my Bible reading habits are suffering because of it. I didn't mean for it to happen; it just did. It just feels as if overnight here I am in this mess again. I feel like I have to keep watching and thinking of Sherlock Holmes; it's become an addiction, the way a drug addict needs their drugs or the alcoholic needs their next drink. I've already asked for prayer for this from some, but the thing is I need to be kept accountable. I need someone else to hold me accountable to getting out of this mess and staying out of it, keeping it as a hobby, not an obsession. I'm very vulnerable to obsessing over literally anything because of the way my mind works. The thing is, no one can read my mind, so no one can say, "oh, I see she's struggling; I'll help her out." And what makes it harder is it's the thought life; it's not like, "if I stay out of a bar, I'll be fine." And daydreaming is very easy for me to do; I can make up stories at the drop of a hat within seconds. So I need ideas on how anyone can keep me accountable because I need that. I need to know that if I struggle, I can go to them, and they can help me out, or if I delve into this, this person will know about it and is going to ask me about it. I feel this obsession has gotten out of my control. If you saw my Pinterest and my YouTube videos, you would see how out of hand it's gotten, and I need help. Please pray that I find someone who can help me and that GOD help me out of this addiction and just keep it as a hobby.
