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supermama
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I am faced with a hard decision. I need prayer to make the right decision. My house is in turmoil right now. Every day I am arguing with my ex husband. We got back together in hopes of making things better and even joined a church together. Lately he is back in the streets hanging out all hours of the night, smoking and drinking. I even went to the bar the other night and asked him if what he was doing was pleasing in Gods eyes. He just cursed me out and told me to leave. I am under conviction and dont want to have sex with him since we are not married and I dont want to marry him just to have sex. I want to marry him only if I know I can depend on him this time to love me, respect me and help me to raise our children. I talked to a minister in my church about it. I told him I was considering putting him out of my home. The minister told me not to. He said that the devil is upset that we are trying to live right and will attack the weakest one. He told me to keep praying and to keep coming to church and I will see a difference. I have to be honest and say I have been so stressed that I have not been going to church like I should. Im so tired of being hollered at, being called names and disrespected. I asked him to leave and he said he was not going anywhere. I told him I would get a restraining order and he said if I do he will hurt me. I feel trapped, confused and very depressed. At this point I just dont know what to do. I am just so tired. I just want some peace and happiness in my life. Please pray for me. Even if you dont respond to this request please just take the time to say a small prayer for me to be given the guidance, strength and courage to do what I have to do. This stress is manifesting itself in my body and I stay sick. On top of that I have diabetes and my glucose levels stay high. I really need your prayers tonight for me to have peace and sanity. I dont know if I should file the injunction to have him removed or continue to pray that things will somehow someway get better. Thank you for taking the time to read this. God Bless you all.
