Hi Anonymous, I am praying for you. Remember though, that when we pray to God, He doesn't always answer yes. His answer might be yes, later, soon, maybe, no, etc. We must trust that He knows best. Faith is not always easy. But we must trust in God, and He will answer. The Bible says, "Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever." (Hebrews 13:8) No matter how bad things get, we must trust in God, because he knows what is best for us. Two other verses that might help are,
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." (Proverbs 3:5) and
"Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!” (Mark 9:24)