Theysee111
Disciple of Prayer
For ### years I have been awakened from my slumber in ### I went through periods of depression in ### I had spiritual attacks in my sleep and home my husband started abusing me .. God revealed and woke me up to the truth in ### since then I have been under attacks mentally and psychically I have been in isolation to work on healing I've learned so much but the attacks won't stop my ex and I separated and in ### I got pregnant post separation after ### years since our daughter's birth we never used protection we tried for baby 2 and nothing so we made peace with that. I took it as a sign that we were meant to stay together and I told him I'm ready I asked him to get his life together and let's try this again. After all he was the love of my life I still love him despite everything he's done … anyway long story short he went on to continue his single life I later found out he was seeing this girl older than him whom I suspected he had an affair with and later confirmed I saw them together while pregnant… this girl knew of me the whole time anyway he was under her power from that point on I saw him less and less so confused and lost in the brain fog. I never stopped loving him and he never left me alone he moved to ### without telling me in ### and in ### he came back to see us. Call me crazy but every time he sees me I know he sees himself and whatever demon has a hold on him hates me but the love we had was real .. anyway he came back to hurt me and it backfired on him he exposed himself I chose my kids' safety over his controlling ways and did what needed to be done to stay safe. The attacks from his partner won't stop I refuse to let this have any power over my life I'm tired but fighting my love is there I don't feel complete I want my life back I want freedom what's missing I want to live still for once I want my body to feel safe I'm a single mom I raise ### girls and ### boy I want to be more present it's hard I need healing I need to see what's holding me back or what demonic forces are affecting me I forgive them but what do I do plz I'm desperate and need prayers

Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. Thank You for loving me, Jesus. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. Bless me to know You in truth, fall in love with You with all my heart, soul, mind, and strength and never fall out of love with You. Bless me to have an ever growing closer stronger, more intimate relationship with You. Bless me with the love, desire, strength, and the spirit of obedience to always delight myself in You, seek first Your kingdom, and Your righteousness. Help and strengthen me God to always respect and obey You. Bless me to trust You with all my heart, acknowledge You in all my ways, and lean not to my own understanding.