perhaps this isnt a curse...perhaps this is blessing?.....maybe a warning?....arn't u ready to be with ur Saviour?...dont u know that being with the Lord jesus in paradise is far greater than being anywhere else?....we r living in the end times...all hell has broken out on this planet and its only going to get worse.......remember...to live...is to live for Christ...to die...is to be....with Christ....i long so to be with Him.......but it is He who controls my living and my passing into the next realm...not me......so i will be patient an wait until He is ready to bring me home where i so long to be...use what time u have left to get even closer to ur maker.....strengthen ur love and desire for Jesus and in doing so He will bless u with His peace and with a strong and loving desire for Him over this evil world we live in today...God bless u and keep u and if He desires to heal u with a mirical and lengthen ur days here on Earth...so be it....ijna