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I need a miracle. To help the person who is reading this I will give a description of my past. I am 42 years old and have been living with undiagnosed Aspergers syndrome and depression. I was abused by my alcoholic step father when I was a child because the quack that the first grade teacher had me sent to said that I had ADD. I was put on Ritalin which caused problems for me, along with the fact that I lived in a house that was a hotbed of demonic activity. Between the ages of 3 and 9 I saw things that would scare the doo doo out of Stephen...... When I would run out of my bedroom in fright, I would be beaten for it. I was almost killed over 10 times, and bound and gagged at least once. The nightly demonic "torment" ended when we moved out of the house that we were living in when I was 9 1/2 years old. I was bullied and teased ruthlessly by other children when I was growing up because I was different. I was in a number of abusive relationships, and never feel as though I fit in anywhere. I am in my second marriage, and unemployed, in financial ruin, trying to go to school to change careers, and my wife hates me. No matter how hard I try to fit in and be "normal" it does not work. WHY DID GOD MAKE ME THIS WAY??? Why did HE allow the devil to torment me, and why does he allow satan to continue to wreak havoc in my life? I have gotten on my knees and asked GOD to forgive me for whatever I have done to deserve such punishment. I have asked HIM for healing from the mental issues and scars that I have. I do not get an answer. I feel abandoned. I feel like HE put me here in this world to be a human toilet and take doodoo from everyone. Why would a loving GOD do that? I try and let the past go, but the present situation has me in so much emotional pain, and worry that it is making it increasingly difficult to keep faith in and trust in the Lord. God saved my life on several occasions, which is an indication to me that HE still has a mission for my life. I seek, I pray, I search, I ask GOD for answers, and I get no reply. I would be full of joy if GOD would speak to my heart and comfort me. I am losing hope and slipping further into the pit of despair. If it wasn't for the fear of going to hell I would have ended my life already.
I need divine intervention in my life. I need a miracle and extra special blessing. Please pray that GOD gives me a more loving and forgiving heart. I need financial help. I am behind on my bills, and rent, and things are being shut off left and right. I have not had trash service in over a month, and had to cobble together an internet connection with a cell phone just to post this because mt home phone and internet is shut off. I try not to worry, and trust in GOD to bring me jobs to make the money that I need to survive, but the numbers are disturbing. I need healing both mentally and physically. I feel like I cannot continue like this and will wind up in the grave or a nuthouse if something doesn't change soon. Jesus came to set the captives free... Lord give me freedom in Your Holy Name. I need freedom from debt, poverty, strife, mental illness, emotional pain, and relationship issues.
I need divine intervention in my life. I need a miracle and extra special blessing. Please pray that GOD gives me a more loving and forgiving heart. I need financial help. I am behind on my bills, and rent, and things are being shut off left and right. I have not had trash service in over a month, and had to cobble together an internet connection with a cell phone just to post this because mt home phone and internet is shut off. I try not to worry, and trust in GOD to bring me jobs to make the money that I need to survive, but the numbers are disturbing. I need healing both mentally and physically. I feel like I cannot continue like this and will wind up in the grave or a nuthouse if something doesn't change soon. Jesus came to set the captives free... Lord give me freedom in Your Holy Name. I need freedom from debt, poverty, strife, mental illness, emotional pain, and relationship issues.
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