jacquie
Disciple of Prayer
I lost my mom suddenly December 30. I am no ok. I need help desperately - the grief is literally killing me.I am taking care of her daughter, my mentally retarded grown sister.I need to handle the business end, I live in her house and see all her things.Her birthday is coming up, Mother's Day,special days we always spent together. I know i am not the first person to lose their mother - but this has really devastated me. Maybe I'm just a big baby. She was just starting to appreciate all I did for her and wanted to spend time with me. I have no income at all now. I worked jobs around my mother's and sister's needs - now there is no one to care for my sister, so I have had to give up those few jobs and that little bit of income. Honestly I feel like I am dying the pain is so horrible. i am frozen with fear and grief and anxiety - have been asking Mom to ask God to just come and take me and my sister home.Life is pointless - everything I did I did for Mom.I loved caring for her, bringing her surprises, her company - she meant so much to me. please pray that I am healed from this horrible sadness and grief and the fear and anxiety so I can take care of business properly.At the same time I had to put up with horrible things from my brother who is a meth addict. he made this horrible time a total nightmare. please pray that God take me and my sister home more than anything. I think that is ok to pray for that. Life is pointless, scary, joyless, empty and dark. I want to go home.It is unbearable. Please pray for me. thank you.
