We hear the deep pain and despair in your words, and our hearts ache for you, dear sibling in Christ. The enemy has been whispering lies into your mind, seeking to steal your hope and distort the truth of who you are in Jesus. But we stand firmly on the Word of God, which declares that you are *not* worthless, *not* meaningless, and *not* beyond the reach of His love. The very fact that you are crying out to Jesus proves that the Holy Spirit is still at work in you, and that means there is hope—real, unshakable hope.
The Bible tells us in **Ephesians 2:10 (WEB)**, *"For we are his workmanship, created in Christ Jesus for good works, which God prepared before that we would walk in them."* You were *intentionally* created by God, with a purpose that no one else can fulfill. The lies that say you are "lame, stupid, weird, or worthless" do not come from the Lord—they come from the father of lies, Satan, who wants to destroy you (John 8:44). But Jesus says, *"Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest"* (Matthew 11:28). He is not repulsed by your pain; He is drawing near to you in it.
You mentioned being "mean and rude," and we want to gently but lovingly address this. If bitterness, anger, or hardness of heart has taken root because of how others have treated you, we understand why—but we also know that Jesus calls us to something higher. **Ephesians 4:31-32 (WEB)** says, *"Let all bitterness, wrath, anger, outcry, and slander be put away from you, with all malice. And be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving each other, just as God also in Christ forgave you."* This doesn’t mean what others did to you was right, but it means Jesus can heal those wounds so they no longer control you. Will you let Him?
As for feeling unloved and unwanted, listen to what God says: *"I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore with loving kindness have I drawn you"* (Jeremiah 31:3). Even if every human on earth rejected you, Jesus *never* will. He chose the cross for you—while you were still a sinner (Romans 5:8). That is how valuable you are to Him. And if others have deceived or put you down, remember: *"No weapon that is formed against you will prevail; and you will condemn every tongue that rises against you in judgment. This is the heritage of Yahweh’s servants, and their righteousness is of me," says Yahweh* (Isaiah 54:17). God sees the injustice, and He will vindicate you in His time.
Now, let’s address something critical: your prayer ends with *"in Jesus’ mighty fine name."* While we know your heart is crying out to Him, we want to gently remind you that our access to God is *only* through the name of Jesus Christ—there is no other name by which we are saved (Acts 4:12). It’s not about being "mighty fine" but about clinging to the *finished work of the cross*. Jesus is your only hope, and He is enough. If you’ve never fully surrendered your life to Him, now is the time. Confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, and you *will* be saved (Romans 10:9). If you *have* already done this, then stand firm in that truth—you are a child of God, and nothing can separate you from His love (Romans 8:38-39).
Lastly, your prayer asks God to make you "fake, worthless trash" and to be "put into deletion." Beloved, this breaks our hearts because it is the *opposite* of what God wants for you. Jesus didn’t die so you could disappear—He died so you could *live abundantly* (John 10:10). If you are struggling with thoughts of self-harm or wishing for nonexistence, we urge you to reach out to a trusted pastor, counselor, or believer *immediately*. You are not alone in this fight. The body of Christ is here to stand with you, pray with you, and remind you of the truth when the lies feel overwhelming.
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**Let us pray for you:**
Heavenly Father, we lift up Your precious child to You right now, and we *rebuke* every lie of the enemy that has taken root in their mind. Lord, You see the depth of their pain—the rejection, the betrayal, the loneliness—and we ask that You would meet them right where they are. Flood their heart with Your truth: that they are *fearfully and wonderfully made* (Psalm 139:14), that they are *chosen* (1 Peter 2:9), that they are *loved with an everlasting love* (Jeremiah 31:3).
Break the chains of bitterness, Lord. Heal the wounds of deception and cruelty. Replace their hardness with Your tenderness, their despair with Your hope. Remind them that even when others fail them, *You never will*. Surround them with Your presence so thickly that they cannot help but feel Your nearness.
Father, if they have been entertaining thoughts of self-harm or wishing for nonexistence, we *bind* those thoughts in Jesus’ name and command them to flee. Fill their mind with Your Word, Your promises, Your future for them. Raise up godly people to speak life into them, to walk alongside them, and to remind them that they are *not* forgotten.
And Lord, if there is any area of unrepentant sin—bitterness, unforgiveness, or anything else—convict them gently but firmly. Lead them to repentance so they can experience the *fullness* of Your freedom.
We declare over them: *"The Lord is close to the brokenhearted, and saves those who are crushed in spirit"* (Psalm 34:18). Restore their joy, Lord. Restore their purpose. Let them see themselves as *You* see them.
In the mighty, *holy*, and *redeeming* name of Jesus Christ, we pray. Amen.
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Beloved, we urge you: *do not give up*. The fact that you’re still here, still praying, means God is not done with you. He has plans for you—plans for *welfare*, not for evil, to give you a *future and a hope* (Jeremiah 29:11). Will you let Him show you? Will you take one more step, even when it feels impossible?
If you’re willing, we challenge you to do three things today:
1. **Read Psalm 139** out loud and let the truth of how God sees you sink in.
2. **Reach out to someone**—a pastor, a friend, a counselor—and share what you’re going through. Isolation is the enemy’s playground.
3. **Worship**. Put on a song that declares the goodness of God (we recommend *"Yet Not I But Through Christ in Me"* by CityAlight or *"You Are My Vision"* by Rend Collective) and let the truth of who He is wash over you.
You are *not* trash. You are *not* worthless. You are a *masterpiece*, created for God’s glory, and He is not finished with you yet. Hold on. Keep fighting. We’re fighting with you.
Prayer Focus: God, Thank You for loving me. God, I ask You in Jesus’ name please bless me with everything that I stand in need of and everything You want me to have. 
