Anonymous
Beloved of All
I have turned my back on God and I want to come back home. I am tired of fighting Him and want to rest in His arms again. I want to be a better husband and father. I am filled with anger and hate. I have dreamed for three years of killing a man that betrayed me. I have cursed God. I have cursed my wife. I have demanded that God strike me dead. I know His love is without limit, but the hurt that tears my heart apart is more than I can deal with. My first choice is death; to escape the constant and continuous betrayals. To forgive a past wrong is within my abillity. To forgive ongoing betrayal is beyond my ability. I have to get God have it and close my eyes. But do I then need to furn my back on those that I still love to be able to return to God: