I have so many questions. I don't share much with my friends and family, although I love them dearly. They worry about me. But I don't understand why we need and have to go through this pain. In the past few months, I was diagnosed with lupus, split with my love ###, hit by an uninsured driver and I have liability only, and my mom is very ill. I can't handle any more. I don't understand. Please someone help me understand. I miss ### and I'm sad about my mom. I just can't win. I know I'm feeling sorry for myself. I just need to understand.