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loren
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I have been struggling with low self-esteem my whole life because I always got picked on in school, and I was always wanting someone to have a relationship with and love me, but I always got hurt. It made me feel like I wasn't pretty enough, so I thought if I had sex with them, it would make them love me. Well, I was dumb enough to keep doing it even though it wasn't working, but I thought it would. Now I look back and I'm so ashamed. I live in guilt every day. I met the man of my dreams, and I love him so much, and it made me really realize how wrong I was. Well, now after I'm with him, I kept having problems like urinary tract infections. Well, come to find out, I had chlamydia, and now I haven't told him for months because I know he will blame me, and then people will really call me awful names. I'm so stressed out. I pray that God will take it away and heal us. If I lose him, I won't know what to do. He has had a past also, but it seems like it's okay for the guy to have a past but not the girl. I just pray that people will forget who I used to be because that wasn't who I really was. I just wanted to feel pretty and be loved, and it got me in a mess to the point where I don't want to live. Please pray for us that we will be healed.
