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casey
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I have always tried to be a good person... I am always the shoulder my friends can lean on if they need to, but I can't appear weak to them as I'm the one that can always be relied on to have the answer.
But secretly, I'm really hurting.
My mother took her life back in 2003. She was my best friend and the most amazing person I've ever known. At the time we were arguing and hadn't spoken for a few months. I've always felt guilty that I wasn't there for her and always think in the back of my mind that if I was there for her at the time, then she wouldn't have felt so alone and killed herself.
I've never been able to move on from this, I've hit rock bottom and drink excessively to try and make my feelings go away. I have some really great friends that try and pull me out of it, but I always just smile and say I'm OK. But I'm really not.
I'm hoping that someone, somewhere, will give me a few minutes of their time and pray for me. I have to be honest here, I'm not a religious person, but I have nothing to lose by asking.
Thank you for your time. I really appreciate it.
But secretly, I'm really hurting.
My mother took her life back in 2003. She was my best friend and the most amazing person I've ever known. At the time we were arguing and hadn't spoken for a few months. I've always felt guilty that I wasn't there for her and always think in the back of my mind that if I was there for her at the time, then she wouldn't have felt so alone and killed herself.
I've never been able to move on from this, I've hit rock bottom and drink excessively to try and make my feelings go away. I have some really great friends that try and pull me out of it, but I always just smile and say I'm OK. But I'm really not.
I'm hoping that someone, somewhere, will give me a few minutes of their time and pray for me. I have to be honest here, I'm not a religious person, but I have nothing to lose by asking.
Thank you for your time. I really appreciate it.
