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[usmith]

I have a question I need to know the truth because NOW I REALLY want to always be free. I think it's a curse on my life because of sexual immorality and sins every since 2009. It started with lusting over girls that I could not get and I came across some explicit things I started to watch. It was not porn yet, and I started to become desensitized and ignorant to what I see now in my life that has caused great damage and ruined me. It got worse as I wanted more and did not care so I came across someone through a so-called friend from high school and not only did we have sex in a rundown hotel but I paid her for it!! After that, I really did not want to go on in any of that anymore but shame, guilt, regret, and condemnation and feeling like I can't change and get right and my downfall and downspiral continued when I went to the army which I believe is why I couldn't last but I started drinking, getting drunk, and going to strip clubs and 'message parlors' all through while I was in the army except when I had a girlfriend that I did have sex with. When I got out the army I did not go anymore to those places except once out of the 2+ years being back home BUT after a while when I first got out I became really drawn and hooked on porn more specifically lesbian and ever since till now I think I have used it as a cope-out or to hide from my real issues with dealing with myself or anyone and especially rejection from girls and loneliness and dependency of wanting others around more specifically having a love life. I know all that sounds like excuses and maybe so but I just do not want to have this in me and my life and destroy my future especially my relationship with my future wife and marriage bed. I most of all know it's keeping me from God and I feel like I can't even pray and when I do I feel like because of all that I have ruined my spiritual life and relationship with God and can't find my way back but I do not want sexual immoral things, lust or impurity or any other sins not just this in me and my future no more but I don't know how to move forward and be free and have a new life that is right. I want to trust and turn to the Lord completely but I don't know if I can let go of what I need to and really let the Lord change me and my life so I can finally be the real me. How do I start over again how do I really make a decision for this and be serious, please pray for me.

 

[webseeker2000]

Abba I pray for this in Jesus name, Amen. Be assured I have prayed for you.

 

[Ampup88]

Just ask God to forgive you he loves us truly loves us in a deep way that is hard for me to understand sometimes there is nothing that God will not forgive us for he loves us and will never stop I pray that God will forgive you and you can have a sense of relief from this guilt.

 

[TXPrayerwarrior]

Praise God! You are so sensitive to the holy spirit's leading! God sees all sin equally. Do not let the devil tell you you are ruined or cannot be saved. You have repented and asked God for help, so now your sin is as far as the east is from the west. He remembers it no more. There are consequences and healing still. You will need to seek recovery. You may need to repent several times but each time it will be easier to do God's will. Try to find a church home. My church has something called CR which is Celebrate Recovery that specifically helps people with addictions to alcohol, porn, sex or who were hurt by abuse or by the fall of man (death, sickness or infertility). A lot of people in church go through this and you are not alone!! PRAISE GOD!!!

Dear God, I lift up this humble Christian for healing emotionally and spiritually and in all areas. Lord, he has repented. I pray that he will turn from sin and ask for your help every time he needs it until this sin is gone. Lord, it may happen fast or may take time but he is in your hands. It took a long time to get here and it will take a while to change. But you, Lord, are a redeemer! I praise you for the good work you are doing in this life. I pray he will have a testimony to share to help others. Send him mentors and Christian brothers to help. In Jesus Name AMEN

 

[GoatFarmer]

I prayed for this in Jesus Name, Amen

 

I just answered a prayer request that was very similar to yours. You are right. It starts small and then gets bigger and then spirals out of control. Porn addiction and then sex addiction. And as your self-esteem gets lower and lower, the more apt you are to think that God will not forgive you or help you see your way out of the addiction. The main thing here is with you I do believe you are addicted to pornography, illicit sex. I believe some of this is emotional and some is lust. I also believe that again the main thing is to recognize you have an addiction. Get on your knees. Repent. Ask God to forgive you and to help you overcome your problem. Also, you probably should seek out a therapist and/or a support group. I will be praying for you. You must conquer this addiction -- It is from Satan, just like any other addiction. But God is stronger. My prayer for you is that you win out over the addiction and that you then find a good Christian woman to marry. I also pray you have a joyful marriage full of love and intimacy, both physical and otherwise. Yours in Christ, ###.

 

[Bernie]

Prayed for you, have faith, your prayers will be answered, God will set you free from all the evil. In Jesus name I pray Amen

 

[hostadmin]

Thank you for giving us the privilege to pray on your behalf. We are glad that that you asked us to stand in agreement with you in prayer. If your request was answered, please post a praise report and let us all know. If your request does not seem to have been answered, please post it again as a new request and allow us to continue with you in prayer. We all hope that our prayers are answered in the way that we want. Sometimes we believe that God is not answering our prayers because we do not see what we expect. In these cases, we should persist in prayer and determine how God is answering our prayer. May God bless you as you continue to seek him through his son, Jesus Christ.

 

[victoryismine]

You can do it.... We all sin and fall short of the glory of GOD Romans 3:23 BUT thru our FATHER in heaven HIS DEAR SON - we can be set free ... He helps us daily. Thank you LORD that you break chains of addiction from sin and flesh. You are the LORD and you are greater in us then we are in this world.

1 John 4:4 You, dear children, are from God and have overcome them, because the one who is in you is greater than the one who is in the world. (so you can overcome it)

1 John 3:20 New International Version (©2011)
If our hearts condemn us, we know that God is greater than our hearts, and he knows everything.

Lord break the chains as this soul draws closer to you and reads your word and meditates upon it daily and prays and clings to you, you will set him free and he will be free indeed.