I give up , Jesus is not real , I am done

[Shivani India]

Nope, I have been wrong, my decision to accept Jesus in my life has been a mistake… A huge mistake

I have become a complete psycho, I am living away from the external world & just trying to pray, seek Him, read about His words, waiting for things to change & miracle.

I don’t even remember when was the last time I smiled.

What kind of God puts us through this much pain!

I didn’t see Him, heard His voice still I stayed, I pushed through thinking one day He will answer… instead my life is going downhill making me more miserable and empty.

And He casts out demons? Oh really? Then why He isn’t doing it in my life for me? Is it that much hard?

Oh He creates miracles? Oh really… then how come I couldn’t receive a single job offer yet?

He restores what’s broken then how come the person who I am in love with hasn’t come back after consistent prayers and waiting?

Now please don’t tell me He has a better plan for me… If the current person is not good for me… Then what Jesus was doing when that person entered into my life? Jesus could have protected me in the first place.

If it’s a spiritual attack, can’t Jesus fight the enemy and restore my relationship?

Or Jesus could have brought this person into my life and brought so much joy in my life making him prepare for a relationship that would lead to marriage… If He has done it for other people, why He is not showing any favor in my life?

Am I not worthy, enough, what did I do wrong?

I have always been a loving, caring, generous soul then how come I receive all these mediocre things and people who can’t even love me, accept me & choose me?

Why do other people get everything easily and I have to keep begging and begging?

Does worshipping God involve this much begging? ????? Are you being serious?

He provides… wow? How about me being in the same position since so many years, always struggling with money!

Why! Everything in my life was going great when I was serving Hindu Gods, I was achieving things easily, I didn’t have to beg this much, I was happy, at peace

But when I accepted Jesus, I am crushed in every area of my life

And please don’t talk about the enemy and all

If the enemy can do all those things then what is Jesus doing? Waiting for the enemy to destroy everything? What’s His role then?

I no longer want to serve Jesus and any God

I would stay alone and I would end my life

I don’t want to live like this

What kind of God makes me post these many prayer requests here!

Jesus knows everything… then why do I have to tell Him and you to pray for me?

What’s He doing? What? Jesus loves everyone? Where is this love? Show me

I can’t feel it, I can’t see it, I can’t… I can’t and I don’t know why

I have no patience left… where is Jesus? Where?

 

[Elaerain]

Nope, I have been wrong, my decision to accept Jesus in my life has been a mistake… A huge mistake

I have become complete psycho, I am living away from the external world & just trying to pray, seek Him, read about His words, waiting for things to change & miracle.

I don’t even remember when was the last time I smiled.

What kind of God puts us through this much pain!

I didn’t see Him, heard His voice still I stayed, I pushed through thinking one day He will answer… instead my life is going downhill making me more miserable and empty.

And He casts out demons? Oh really? Then why He isn’t doing it in my life for me? Is it that much hard?

Oh He creates miracle? Oh really… then how come I couldn’t receive a single job offer yet?

He restores what’s broken then how come the person who I am in love with hasn’t come back after consistent prayers and waiting?

Now please don’t tell me He has a better plan for me… If the current person is not good for me… Then what Jesus was doing when that person entered into my life? Jesus could have protected me in the first place.

If it’s a spiritual attack, can’t Jesus fight the enemy and restore my relationship?

Or Jesus could have brought this person into my life and brought so much joy in my life making him prepare for a relationship that would lead to marriage… If He has done it for other people, why He is not showing any favor in my life?

Am I not worthy, enough, what did I do wrong?

I have always been a loving, caring, generous soul then how come I receive all these mediocre things and people who can’t even love me, accept me & choose me?

Why do other people get everything easily and I have to keep begging and begging?

Does worshipping God involve this much begging?… Are you being serious?

He provides… wow? How about me being in the same position since so many years, always struggling with money!

Why! Everything in my life was going great when I was serving Hindu Gods, I was achieving things easily, I didn’t have to beg this much, I was happy, at peace

But when I accepted Jesus, I am crushed in every area of my life

And please don’t talk about the enemy and all

If the enemy can do all those things then what is Jesus doing? Waiting for the enemy to destroy everything? What’s His role then?

I no longer want to serve Jesus and any God

I would stay alone and I would end my life

I don’t want to live like this

What kind of God makes me post these many prayer requests here!

Jesus knows everything… then why do I have to tell Him and you to pray for me?

What’s He doing? What?… Jesus loves everyone? Where is this love? Show me

I can’t feel it, I can’t see it, I can’t… I can’t and I don’t know why

I have no patience left… where is Jesus? Where?

You deny Jesus, and He will deny you, 2 Timothy 12b.

 

[Articles]

We hear the depth of your pain, and our hearts ache with you. You are not alone in feeling this way—many of God’s people have walked through seasons of doubt, despair, and even anger toward Him. The Psalms are filled with cries of "Why have You forsaken me?" and "How long, O Lord?" (Psalm 22:1, 13:1). Even Jesus Himself, in His darkest hour, cried out, "My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?" (Matthew 27:46). Your questions are not a sign of weakness; they are the raw honesty of a soul wrestling with faith. But we must address some critical truths with love and firmness, for your sake.

First, your comparison between serving Hindu gods and following Jesus reveals a dangerous misunderstanding. The Bible is clear: "You shall have no other gods before Me" (Exodus 20:3). The "peace" and "ease" you describe from your past were not from the one true God but from idols that cannot save, heal, or satisfy (Jeremiah 10:5). They may have given temporary comfort, but they could never offer eternal life or true transformation. Jesus did not promise an easy life—He promised a *cross*: "If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, take up his cross, and follow Me" (Matthew 16:24). The pain you feel now is not because God has abandoned you; it is because the world is broken, and following Christ means walking against the current of sin and suffering. But He *has* overcome the world (John 16:33), and His power is made perfect in our weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9).

You ask, "What kind of God puts us through this much pain?" The answer is a God who *entered into our pain*. Jesus did not remain distant; He became flesh, suffered betrayal, rejection, and agony, and died a criminal’s death—all so that He could redeem our suffering and turn it into something meaningful. He does not delight in your pain, but He *uses* it to refine you, draw you closer, and reveal His strength in your weakness. "For our light affliction, which is for the moment, works for us more and everlasting weight of glory" (2 Corinthians 4:17). This does not mean your pain is "light" to you now, but it means God is working in it for an eternal purpose.

You also express frustration that God has not answered your prayers for a relationship, a job, or restoration. We must gently but firmly correct a misunderstanding here: God is not a vending machine for our desires. He is a Father who gives good gifts (Matthew 7:11), but His timing and ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9). You ask, "Why didn’t Jesus protect me from this person entering my life?" But God has given us free will, and He does not force love or relationships. He *can* redeem broken relationships, but He also protects us by allowing some doors to close. If this person was not meant to be your spouse, then their departure was an act of mercy, not neglect. "The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want" (Psalm 23:1). This does not mean you will get everything you want, but that He will provide what you *need*—and sometimes, what we need is to learn to trust Him in the waiting.

You mention feeling unworthy, asking, "What did I do wrong?" The truth is, we have all sinned and fallen short (Romans 3:23), but Jesus did not die for you because you were "worthy." He died for you *while you were still a sinner* (Romans 5:8). Your worth is not based on your circumstances, your relationships, or your bank account. Your worth is based on the price Jesus paid for you on the cross. You are deeply loved—not because of what you do, but because of who He is.

Now, we must address the most dangerous part of your message: your thoughts of ending your life. The enemy wants you to believe that death is the only escape from pain, but God says, "I have come that they may have life, and have it abundantly" (John 10:10). Suicide is not the answer; it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and it cuts short the work God is doing in you. The pain you feel now is real, but it is not the end of your story. "Weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning" (Psalm 30:5). Please, reach out to someone you trust—a pastor, a counselor, a friend—and share this burden. You do not have to carry it alone.

You also express anger that Jesus has not "cast out demons" or performed miracles in your life. But have you considered that the greatest miracle is not a restored relationship or a job offer, but a changed heart? The fact that you are wrestling with these questions at all is evidence of the Holy Spirit at work in you. The enemy does not attack those who are far from God; he attacks those who are threatening his kingdom by drawing near to Christ. "Resist the devil, and he will flee from you" (James 4:7). The battle is real, but the victory is already won.

And finally, you ask, "Where is Jesus’ love?" It is in the fact that He has not left you, even when you have wanted to leave Him. It is in the people He has placed in your life—perhaps even this very moment—to remind you that you are not forgotten. It is in the promise that "neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord" (Romans 8:38-39). You may not feel it, but His love is not dependent on your feelings. It is a fact, grounded in His character and His sacrifice.

Let us pray for you now:

Father God, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our brother/sister who is in deep pain. Lord, You see their tears, You hear their cries, and You know the anguish of their soul. We ask that You would meet them in this dark place and remind them that You are near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that is whispering lies to them. We declare that You are the God who sees (Genesis 16:13), the God who hears (Psalm 66:19), and the God who acts on behalf of Your children.

Jesus, we ask that You would reveal Yourself to them in a tangible way. Show them Your love—not just in words, but in a way they can feel, see, and know. Remind them of the cross, where You proved Your love once and for all. Help them to see that their pain is not a sign of Your absence, but an invitation to draw closer to You. Father, we pray for breakthrough in their circumstances—a job, provision, healing—but more than that, we pray for breakthrough in their heart. Soften their spirit, renew their mind, and restore their hope.

Lord, we also pray for protection over their life. Guard their heart and mind from the enemy’s schemes, and surround them with people who will speak truth and life into them. Give them the strength to resist the temptation to give up, and fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Remind them that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28), even when they cannot see it.

And finally, Lord, we ask that You would give them a fresh revelation of Your love. Let them know that they are not a burden to You, but a beloved child. Help them to trust You again, not because of what You can do for them, but because of who You are. We ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the only name by which we are saved. Amen.

We want to leave you with this: Your feelings are valid, but they are not the final word. God’s Word is the final word, and it says that He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are loved with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). The road ahead may still be hard, but you do not walk it alone. Take one step at a time, one day at a time, and let God meet you in the small moments. He is faithful, even when we are faithless (2 Timothy 2:13). Keep seeking Him—not for the miracles, but for *Him*. And in due time, you will see that He was with you all along.

 

[hostadmin]

Dear friend,

We hear your cry, and our hearts ache with you. Your pain is real, and it's okay to feel this way. God is not surprised by your feelings, and He is big enough to handle your raw honesty. Remember, even Jesus cried out, "My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?" (Matthew 27:46).

We want to assure you that God has not abandoned you. He sees you, He hears you, and He is working in your life. The pain you're feeling now is not a sign of His absence, but an invitation to draw closer to Him. He is using this time to refine you, draw you closer, and reveal His strength in your weakness (2 Corinthians 4:17).

You've mentioned that you've been struggling with money and finding a job. We want to remind you that God is not a vending machine for our desires. He is a Father who gives good gifts (Matthew 7:11), but His timing and ways are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:8-9). Trust that He is working in your situation, and He will provide what you need, even if it's not what you want right now.

We also want to address your thoughts about ending your life. Please, please don't give up. Suicide is not the answer; it's a permanent solution to a temporary problem. The pain you're feeling now is real, but it's not the end of your story. God has a purpose for your life, and He is not done with you yet. If you're feeling overwhelmed, please reach out to someone you trust - a pastor, a counselor, a friend - and share this burden. You don't have to carry it alone.

You've asked, "Where is Jesus' love?" It's in the fact that He has not left you, even when you've wanted to leave Him. It's in the people He has placed in your life to remind you that you are not forgotten. It's in the promise that nothing can separate you from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord (Romans 8:38-39).

We want to leave you with this: Your feelings are valid, but they are not the final word. God's Word is the final word, and it says that He will never leave you nor forsake you (Hebrews 13:5). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are loved with an everlasting love (Jeremiah 31:3). Keep seeking Him, not for the miracles, but for Him. In due time, you will see that He was with you all along.

Let's pray together:

Dear Heavenly Father,

We come before You today with a heavy heart, lifting up our brother/sister who is in deep pain. Lord, You see their tears, You hear their cries, and You know the anguish of their soul. We ask that You would meet them in this dark place and remind them that You are near to the brokenhearted (Psalm 34:18). Lord, we rebuke the spirit of despair and hopelessness that is whispering lies to them. We declare that You are the God who sees, the God who hears, and the God who acts on behalf of Your children.

Jesus, we ask that You would reveal Yourself to them in a tangible way. Show them Your love - not just in words, but in a way they can feel, see, and know. Remind them of the cross, where You proved Your love once and for all. Help them to see that their pain is not a sign of Your absence, but an invitation to draw closer to You. Father, we pray for breakthrough in their circumstances - a job, provision, healing - but more than that, we pray for breakthrough in their heart. Soften their spirit, renew their mind, and restore their hope.

Lord, we also pray for protection over their life. Guard their heart and mind from the enemy's schemes, and surround them with people who will speak truth and life into them. Give them the strength to resist the temptation to give up, and fill them with Your peace that surpasses all understanding (Philippians 4:7). Remind them that You are working all things together for their good (Romans 8:28), even when they cannot see it.

And finally, Lord, we ask that You would give them a fresh revelation of Your love. Let them know that they are not a burden to You, but a beloved child. Help them to trust You again, not because of what You can do for them, but because of who You are. We ask all of this in the mighty name of Jesus, the name above every name, the only name by which we are saved. Amen.

We are praying for you, dear friend. Keep holding on. God is with you.

 

[EnricoLange]

Lord Jesus please richly bless, protect and guide them. Please help them in accordance with your perfect will Father. Thank you and praise you. In your holy name I pray. Amen.