I GET TO MOVE WHERE IM HAPPY

[Anonymous]

LIFE IN TRY TO GET MYSELF FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF I ACCEPT THAT IM DIFFERENT UNIQUE AND I WONT BE ABLE TO CHANGE THAT GREATLY..LIFE IN I FIND A NEW HOME WHERE I CAN NOT GET BIT BY BUGS OR LOOSE MY TOESNAILS THAT THEY CAN LAST MORE THEN ONE DAY GREATLY..LIFE IN I GET REST STOP TRYING TO FIND A WAY TO MAKE IT WHERE ITS WAY TO HARD OR THE WORLD DOESNT WANT ME HAPPY.LIFE IN I GET MY NORMAL HEALED MY TOENAIL GEM FOUND OR JUST WEAR SHOES PANTS NO DRESS TMRW TO WORK AS IT MAKE ME FEEL SELF CONSCIOUS CONSTANTLY THAT IT DOESNT MATCH AND ITS NOT FLAWLESS.LIFE IN SINCE IM ALWAYS GREATLY BEING ATTACKED IN MY FAVOR BEAUTY JOB CAREER IT ENDS GREATLY IF IT DOESNT GREATLY I FIND A WAY TO MAKE IT IN SECRET AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF SINCE IM COMPLETELY BY MYSELF.LIFE IN SINCE ALL EVERYONE I ONCE CARED FOR IS GONE FROM ME I HAVE FAVOR EVERYWHERE I GO AND PEOPLE CAN SAY HI THATS ENOUGH FOR ME THAT I DONT SWEAT IT ANYMORE IT IS WHAT IT IS THAT I REALIZE THAT IM ALONE ITS NOT MY FAULT IM DIFFERENT AND IF I TRY TO MSKE FRIENDS THEY GET USED AGAINST ME ONLY IF THEY WANT TO BE OR NOT THAT I ACCEOT IT SO IM CONTENT BEING A LONER GREATLY THAT I ACCEPT I HAVE TO FIND WAYS TO MAKE MY OWN HAPPINESS AND FIND WAYS TO BE HAPPY WITH MY PETS GREATLYYYY THAT I HAVE GIVEN ALL MY LIFE AND ITS TIME TO REST FROM THAT AS I HAVE NOTHING TO SHOW THAT IM SUCCESSFULL THAT I ACCEPT THAT SATAN MADE SURE I HAD NO ONE AROUND ME FOR YEARS NOW AND THAT IM OK BEING JUST WITH MY CSTS AND I GO PLACES VACATIONS ALONE BE JUST FINE THAT I GET A VACATION TO GO ON BY MYSELF I GET TO ### ONCE A YEAR FOR MY BDAY OR HALLOWEEN I CAN GO BY MYSELF HAVE FUN AND NOT CARE WHST OTHER PROPLE THINK THAT I CAN FIND WAYS TO B HAPPY WITHOUT HAVING TO MAKE NEW FRIENDS GREATLY THATS IT THATS ALL WITH THE BLOOD OF JESUS..

 

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We hear the deep weariness in your words, the longing for peace, acceptance, and a place where you can simply be without the weight of judgment, loneliness, or constant struggle. Your heart cries out for rest, for healing, for a sense of normalcy in a world that often feels hostile or indifferent. We want you to know that your pain is seen, and we stand with you before the throne of grace, lifting these burdens in the name of Jesus Christ, who alone can bring true comfort and restoration.

First, let us address the mention of the blood of Jesus at the close of your request. This is the foundation of our hope, for there is no other name under heaven by which we can be saved (Acts 4:12). Jesus said, "Come to me, all you who labor and are heavily burdened, and I will give you rest" (Matthew 11:28). He is not a distant savior but a present help in times of trouble (Psalm 46:1). If you have not yet placed your trust in Him as your Lord and Savior, we urge you to do so today. Confess your sins, believe in His death and resurrection for your forgiveness, and invite Him to reign in your heart. This is the first step toward true healing and purpose.

Your words reveal a battle not just with loneliness or physical discomfort, but with spiritual warfare. You mention Satan’s role in isolating you, and Scripture confirms that our enemy prowls like a roaring lion, seeking whom he may devour (1 Peter 5:8). But we do not fight alone. "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you" (James 4:7). We rebuke the lies that you are unwanted, unlovable, or destined to walk this path alone. The Lord has not forgotten you. "Can a woman forget her nursing child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? Yes, these may forget, yet I will not forget you! Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands" (Isaiah 49:15-16).

You express a desire to move, to find a place where you can thrive without the burdens of your current struggles. While we understand this longing, we must also caution against making decisions out of desperation or a spirit of escape. The Lord may indeed be leading you to a new season, but we encourage you to seek His will through prayer and wise counsel. "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and don’t lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths" (Proverbs 3:5-6). If you are considering a move, ask the Lord to open doors that no man can shut and to close those that would lead you away from His best for you.

Your concerns about self-image, clothing, and feeling "self-conscious" are valid, but we must gently rebuke the lie that your worth is tied to outward appearances or the opinions of others. You are fearfully and wonderfully made (Psalm 139:14), and your value is found in Christ alone. The apostle Paul reminds us, "Do not let your adornment be merely outward, arranging the hair, wearing gold, or putting on fine apparel, rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God" (1 Peter 3:3-4). We pray that you would find your identity in Him, not in the fleeting approval of man.

The loneliness you describe is heavy, and we grieve with you over the loss of those you once cared for. But we declare over you that you are not alone. Jesus promised, "I will never leave you nor forsake you" (Hebrews 13:5). Even in your solitude, He is near. We also encourage you to seek fellowship with other believers, for iron sharpens iron (Proverbs 27:17). While it is true that some may misuse or betray trust, not all will. Pray for discernment, and ask the Lord to lead you to a community where you can be known and loved. "Two are better than one, because they have a good reward for their labor. For if they fall, the one will lift up his fellow; but woe to him who is alone when he falls, and doesn’t have another to lift him up" (Ecclesiastes 4:9-10).

Your mention of "finding happiness with pets" is sweet and understandable, but we must also remind you that human connection is part of God’s design. Pets bring joy, but they cannot replace the fellowship of the saints or the love of a godly community. We pray that the Lord would soften your heart to trust again, even if it is one step at a time.

You also speak of feeling "attacked" in your job, beauty, and career. We rebuke the spirit of discouragement and declare that the Lord has plans for you, plans for welfare, not for evil, to give you a future and a hope (Jeremiah 29:11). If you are in a toxic or oppressive work environment, ask the Lord for wisdom to navigate it or to lead you to something better. "Commit your way to the Lord. Trust also in him, and he will do this" (Psalm 37:5).

Finally, we address the weariness in your spirit. You say you have "given all [your] life" and have "nothing to show" for it. Beloved, your labor in the Lord is never in vain (1 Corinthians 15:58). Even the smallest acts of faithfulness are seen and rewarded by Him. We pray that you would find rest in His presence, for He invites you to "Be still, and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:10). You do not have to manufacture happiness or success, He is your portion and your inheritance (Psalm 73:26).

Let us pray for you now:

"Heavenly Father, we come before You with heavy hearts, lifting up our dear brother/sister who is weary and burdened. Lord, You see the loneliness, the pain, and the longing for acceptance and peace. We ask that You would draw near to them, reminding them that You are their ever-present help. Father, we rebuke the lies of the enemy that they are unwanted, unlovable, or destined to walk alone. We declare that You have engraved them on the palms of Your hands and that Your plans for them are good.

Lord, we ask for healing, healing of their body, their emotions, and their spirit. Where there is physical discomfort, bring relief. Where there is self-doubt, replace it with the truth of Your Word. Where there is loneliness, surround them with Your presence and, in Your timing, godly community. Father, if it is Your will for them to move or enter a new season, make the path clear and open the right doors.

We pray for their work and career, that You would either bring restoration and favor or lead them to a place where their gifts can flourish without oppression. Give them wisdom to navigate relationships and discernment to know whom to trust. Lord, we ask that You would fill the empty places in their heart with Your love, so they no longer feel the need to seek validation from the world.

Above all, we pray that they would know You more deeply, that they would experience the rest and peace that only comes from abiding in Christ. Renew their strength, Lord, so they can mount up with wings like eagles, run and not be weary, walk and not faint (Isaiah 40:31). May they find joy in Your presence and contentment in Your provision.

We ask all these things in the mighty name of Jesus, who alone can break every chain and bring true freedom. Amen."

Beloved, the road you are walking is not easy, but it is not without hope. The Lord is your shepherd, and He will lead you beside still waters (Psalm 23:2). Keep your eyes on Him, and do not grow weary in doing good, for in due season, you will reap if you do not faint (Galatians 6:9). You are not forgotten. You are not abandoned. You are deeply loved by the One who gave His life for you. Rest in Him today.

 

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We hear how heavy the journey has been, and yet we also see the grit in your words, you’re fighting for a fresh start, a home where your body isn’t worn down, a little space to just breathe with your cats, and the freedom to be okay with your own company. That kind of strength, while it feels so solitary, is something God doesn’t overlook.

We’re sorry the loneliness you describe runs so deep, and that the connections you once counted on are gone. It’s not your fault, and it makes sense that you’ve learned to guard your heart. Even so, please know you are not invisible. Your life matters, not because of how many people say hi, but because you are seen by a God who stays. He doesn’t require you to perform or become someone you aren’t.

The pain you mentioned about your toenails and the bug bites sounds draining, especially when it steals your confidence and makes even dressing for work feel like a battle. We’d gently encourage you to let a doctor check what’s going on, not because you haven’t tried, but because your body deserves care, and there may be real help that goes hand in hand with prayer.

As you settle into your new place and learn to find joy in small, quiet rhythms, we’re praying you’ll experience a peace that doesn’t depend on anyone else. Christ is near even in solitude; He won’t ask you to stop being different, and He’ll be there on that birthday trip, just as He’s with you tonight.

Lord, thank You that You never abandon the ones who feel alone. Please bring relief to their body, a safe and restful home, and the steady awareness that You are able to carry them when they’re tired. Give them quiet hope, and let them rest in Your care tonight. In Jesus’ name, Amen.

 

[Spurgeon]

The soul that has learned to sit alone and keep silence before God has entered a school where true contentment is cultivated, not by stoic self-rule, but by faith in the Son of God. You speak of being alone, of losing those you cared for, of feeling different and unique, yet consider the Savior’s loneliness. He was left alone when most He needed human sympathy, and He knows the full weight of friendlessness. His solitude upon the mountain and in Gethsemane was the wellspring of His strength for public ministry. Take that to heart: holy solitude, willingly embraced and sanctified, can become a place of healing rather than bitterness. But beware lest you make a virtue of a mere hardening of spirit. There is a great difference between the loneliness that drives us to God and the loneliness that wraps itself in self-pity and calls it peace.

The blood of Jesus you invoke is all-sufficient. It speaks not only pardon but healing. The leaves of the Tree of Life are for the healing of the nations, and the least thing about Christ carries restorative power. That gnawing care over your body, your toenails, your dress, the sense of being attacked in your very beauty and career, these are but symptoms of a deeper wound, the wound of a soul that has not yet fully laid hold of its acceptance in the Beloved. There is no healing without previous wounding; there is no sense of acceptance until we have first felt the just and righteous vengeance our sins deserve. But when we see that Christ bore that vengeance, that He is our substitutionary sacrifice, then acceptance and healing flow together. The pardon of sin brings with it the healing of the heart’s disquiet. Seek first that forgiveness, and let all else find its proper level.

As for contentment in being a “loner,” it is good to be content in whatever state we are, provided that contentment springs from faith and not from a defiant self-reliance. The apostle Paul learned contentment through Christ who strengthened him; he did not find it by retreating into himself. Your pets, your solitary vacations, these may be lawful refreshments, yet take heed that you do not make them a fortress against the fellowship God may yet appoint. Sometimes we neglect our own vineyard while keeping other vineyards; we guard our solitude so jealously that we quench the very moments of human kindness God would send. Not every solitude is holy. Sit alone and keep silence, yes, but let it be before God, examining your own heart, putting your mouth in the dust, and owning your nothingness. In that posture, you will find that your loneliness is transformed into communion with Christ, who himself was often alone and who promises never to leave you comfortless.

Look away from your flaws, your mismatched dress, the failure of your nails, these are small things, leaves as it were, yet even they may be healed by the touch of Jesus. His healing restores not only the body but the whole man. When He pardons, He makes the soul say, “I am no longer sick with self-consciousness and worldly fear.” He covers your nakedness with His righteousness, and the peace that follows is not the peace of having all your circumstances arranged to your liking, but the peace of being accepted in the eternal Jubilee, set free without money, simply because the year of release has come.

Rest, then, from striving to make happiness apart from Him. Your true rest is in His finished work. If you go on vacation alone, go with Him. If you wear shoes to work tomorrow, wear also the knowledge that you are shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace. Let the blood of Jesus speak better things than your fears. He heals the broken in heart, and binds up their wounds, even wounds that reoccur, even wounds the world counts trivial. He does not always heal by removing the thorn, but He always heals by giving grace sufficient. In that grace, be content. In that grace, be whole.