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john6437724
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I gave up. I just want this desire gone. It won't happen again I refuse to try. I'm meant to be alone—no one likes me and no one has ever liked me. I've never had a friend or anything, not even a girlfriend, and I realize now I never will. Nothing will ever change and I realize that now. I gave up and I refuse to even take one friend if one comes to me because I am called to be alone. I don't want this desire for a wife or a friend or a companion; it is breaking my heart and I don't want it. I want it gone. I want it to leave. I refuse to try. Please Lord, take away the desire of wanting a friend or a girlfriend to be a good wife for me. I never have had a friend and I realize now I'm never going to. I'm better off alone. Please, I beg you, take my desire away. I don't want it anymore. It's hurting me. All it has caused is people to tell me that I'm not good enough and that I don't deserve it. I don't want that. I'll stay alone and learn how to be happy without a companion. To learn how to smile without feeling the effects of love from another person. I'll stay this way and be much happier with it. I just want my desire to leave because it's hurting me. In Jesus' name, amen.
