I Feel Like God Neglects Me Every Time I Call On Him.

[ILoveGod]

Why doesn't God want to help me? I feel like I'm doing everything by myself. Please don't say below that God is always with me because I know he his, but he's not helping me. Every time I post something on this website I get in a way, "excited" because I have this hope that he's going to listen to my prayers. Everything in my life is going badly. I have no friends, I'm homeschooled (I can't go to regular public school-the public school close to me is dangerous-literally), my family has no money, my dad is a jerk (and doesn't seem to care about his family-he wants to divorce my mom and has called me "stupid" and "immature", and my ONLY friend's mom is very sick. I always feel embarrassed to put this up here because I've asked so many times... I'm short--so short and it's just seriously deterring me from living (again literally). I can't reach anything. I'm humiliated each day and I feel as though God could care less. I'm white with blonde hair and blue eyes, but I'm 1/8 Japanese. I think the small percentage of Asian in me is making me SO short (4 11") and I'm FIFTEEN! Nobody understands me--NOBODY--and I just come to this site hoping that something would happen, but this has been happening for two years...and nothing... How long is he going to put me through this? How can God watch someone suffer? I know I couldn't. I just feel like anytime I pray it will never come true. I seriously hate life. It's not fun--it's torture. I know that God only looks at the inner soul, but being confident on the outside just makes me feel so much better. I come from a wealthy family, but my family as used it foolishly. My brother gets to go to private school, which is not fair. I don't understand why God can't won't help me right now. I feel like he's stripped me to the bone... When is he going to rescue me? I've called on him and no answer-NO NOTHING! I just feel like I'm fluff... I don't want to be fluff--I want to make a difference, and all I'm asking is 6 inches-the width of my hand. How could God not help a child? I feel as though I'm not one of his children. I had this amazing relationship with him, but it's falling apart because I can't pick up my bible without thinking of all the hurt I'm going through, and how I've never received an answer. If he made me, why won't he help me? I feel like he's led me to defend for myself. I also have severe eczema and have developed really terrible acne. I feel like I'm so tired of being tired and crying and not having someone to understand what I'm going through. I've tried talking with my mom and I asked her not to say anything to anyone, and she turns around and tells people. I can't trust my mom or my dad, and I feel as though God isn't helping either. I turned to him because he was the only father that I could every have. I asked for forgiveness for everything, and here I am crying my heart out--wishing and PRAYING that he would do something! I am TIRED. I AM HURTING. I NEED LOVE, but I haven't received any love from God. Why won't he help? Why?! Why?! Why me?! I never feel beautiful, worth it, or valuable... I know it says in scripture God loves me so much, but how come I don't feel it?

 

[Cliff]

DEAR LORD, please take my hand today! Lead me. In fact LORD, please carry me every day because I am so weak. You are so strong. You have told me to come to You when I am weary and heavy laden and You will give me rest. Here I am Lord...begging the great I AM to cure my life. Increase my Faith. Make me Bold. Give me Strength to trust again. In Your name I pray, Amen

 

[Marla]

Hi. My heart feels for you, as a woman I understand how you're feeling. But you MUST love yourself first before anyone else can love you, EVEN God. THe entire universe responds to us based on how we perceive ourselves, how we love ourselves, how we appreciate ourselves. Starting now, focus on what you like about yourself, not on what you don't like. Focus on all the good things in your life, not the things that aren't working. Slowly, if you practice this, you'll see that things will start to change. The quicker you can heal your perspective about yourself and your life, the quicker you'll see God's miracles start to pour in. I promise you this is true. Hang in there, you're a blessing to the world, you just haven't realized it yet. Marla

 

[AT HIS FEET]

Nay to all these things,we are more than conquerors through Lord Jesus Christ(Rom 8:37).

Please claim this promise of God in your heart and see how your life changes.

 

[Dennis_]

Hi ILoveGod,

Your situation in a way mirrors something I was/I am still going through..where everyone was telling me that my situation was hopeless to the point that I ended up in 3 hospitals and that I should just give up, but you know what?

Just stop and think about it for a a minute... the God you serve and who you seek even in this your darkest night... Created the Heavens and the earth, he spans the universe...think of it...the UNIVERSE..the whole thing..with his hand.

Many times..when I am overwhelmed I just dwell on this simple truth... they're times when everything seems to be in ruins and all the pieces of your life seem to be on the floor...but so many times this has happened and still God has delivered his children when no one else could, from king Hezekiah when the Kingdom of Judah was totally surrounded by a vast army whose king mocked God,when he was at the point of death and God gave him 15 more years of life, when David was chased from the throne by his own son, when he had fallen from grace to ground due to sin and everything was going badly...still God was there to pick up the pieces... Its not just the kings..think of Hannah..when she cried to the Lord at his temple..as she was barren and was openly mocked..God heard her prayer and delivered her from her misery..(she was the mother of prophet Samuel), think of Ruth..think of Daniel, think of the countless miracles the Lord has performed for his Glory even this very day.

I know its hard..I struggle with it every day myself...because I know that God can smile..and that instant every single trouble and trial that I am going through can vanish, and I keep asking why He doesn't just do it already, but you know what..there is sunshine after the rain, weeping may last through the night but Joy comes in the morning. just hang in there dear.. God will see us through

He has plans to give us a future...don't despair ,we are just being purified by these trials

If you do feel its really bad and need someone to talk to, you can always IM/message me.

Prayer:

O Lord only you know our deepest darkest fears and troubles only you know our pain

But you give us beauty for ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. That we will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the LORD for the display of his splendor.

Even though the hordes of the enemy come against us, you died on the cross that we may be saved and they have no power and dominion over us

So what ever spirit of depression and death that is trying to bring down my dear sister, I rebuke it in your name

I pray that she may meet and befriend positive people who love and cherish you, who care for her

That she may be planted in you and you in her

Amen

 

[Israel Dubaron]

Hey hun,

My name is Israel on here but my real name is Anthony.

I haven't logged in on this site in a bit, but I received an email that my account was being deactivated due to me being inactive so I logged in. Yours is the first and only prayer request that I immediately saw. Darling I just wanted to share my testimony with you because I have felt the majority of everything that you have stated above.

I was lucky enough to be born into a family that already knew Jesus. We all ended up backsliding and stepping away from God and from the church for a very long time. When I was a growing up I didn't have the best life. I will admit to you that I was actually "abused" when I was younger and because of this I ended up growing a personality disorder. When I was between 10 - about 17 I had a social phobia and I pretty much was incapable of talking to other people. I had a horrible self image and because of this I let myself become very over weight. I thought I was so ugly and the fact that I was mentally retarded did not help the issue any. One day I was looking in the mirror absolutely hating what I saw so I took a camera that I had and let the flash go off repeatedly in front of my eyes in hopes that I would go blind and not have to face myself anymore. It damaged my vision but my attempt failed. Eventually I ended up having suicidal thoughts and tried to take my own life because I really felt I was so alone. I drank some things and thought that Id finally would have some peace. I passed out and by some miracle the next morning I woke up because apparently I had managed to vomit everything out. After that happened I kind of let the whole suicide thing go because hey some miracle kept me here for some reason. Things didn't get any better any time soon. A week before graduation one of my teachers informed me that I was failing her class and that I would not get to graduate with the rest of my class. This devastated me. I went home and found out that the teacher had called my mother and informed her. When I walked in the door I just saw her crying on the couch so I walked right back out and kept on walking. I walked for hours all over the city, trying to figure out what to do, trying to find any answer that I could. I remember when the sun was setting I was in some random field and I could hear chimes going off. I assumed it was an ice cream man or something along those lines and wrote it off. The chiming didn't cease so eventually I looked around and saw that the only road nearby was completely empty, I was puzzled by this so I decided to investigate. I started walking towards the direction where I heard them coming from. Eventually the noise faded away but I kept on going down that road not really paying attention to where it led me. When I finally looked up I had managed to walk myself to the church I used to go to when I was growing up. I didn't know how I got there, but I knew it was my answer. Eventually I went back and rededicated my life to the Lord

Since then I will tell you things still are difficult from time to time but with the simple knowledge of knowing I had God with me no matter what I did I was able to do great things. I now do not have any type of social phobia and am very outgoing. Believe it or not but I actually also now do some modeling and I am a photographer as well. I went from having no self image to actually being able to do that. I always think it's really ironic that when I was young I tried to take my vision with a camera and now God turned that around and gave me a career out of it.

Well what i suppose I'm trying to get at is, no matter how bad or hard things get. DON'T GIVE UP! The people that have the hardest lives usually are the ones that end up having the most fulfilling outcomes in the end. God chose to give us this life because he knew we could handle it and that we could turn it into something glorious. Those who go through the most are the ones with the biggest callings. Keep on pressing forward to the mark of the high calling, no matter what blinders get in your way. I do believe God sent me here just to reply to you and encourage you. To let you know that He is listening and ABOVE ALL ELSE HE DOES LOVE YOU! He has great things in store for you! Go out and get them.

<3 Anthony

 

[Ms. Unbeatable]

do not let your heart be troubled trust in God trust also in me In my fathers house are many rooms if it were not so I would have told you I am going there to prepare a room for you Jhon14;1-3

the counselor the holy spirit whom the father will send in my name will teach you all things and will remind you of everything peace I leave with you my peace I give you I do not give you as the world gives do not let your heart be troubled and do not be afraid Jhon14:25-27

you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices you will grieve but your grieve will turn to joy a woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come but when the baby is born she forgets the aguish because of her joy that a child is born so with you now is your time of grief but I will see you again and you will rejoice and no one will take away your joy Jhon16:20-22

I have told you these things so that in me you may have peace in this world you will have trouble but take heart! I have over come the world Jhon 16:33

Dear friends do not be surprised at the painful trial you are suffering as though something strange were happening to you but rejoice that you participate in the suffering of Christs so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed 1petter43:12,13

consider it pure joy my brothers when ever you face trials of many kinds because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance james1:2

you need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God you will receive what He has promise heb10:346

Let us fix our eyes on Jesus the author and the perfecter of our faith who for the joy set before him endured the cross scorning its shame and sat dowm at the rigth hand of the throne of God hebrew 12:2

Hi,I have also experience same I have also ask God why?but I was remided of all the servant of God who have done great things yet suffered a lot,apostle paul suffered a lot James executed sthepen was stone and died Jerimiah was put in cistern Elija wanted to die Job who are righteous in the eye of God suffered a lot David was depress and sad and other more So I stop asking God and I just Said Lord I will never exchange my life there with you to the trials I am expriencing here on earth My pastor said You are experiencing those trials because God is preparing you to be his general God is preparing you to do great jobs for him God is preparing you not be just ordinary person but to be extra ordinary...to show his glory to the world.greater suffering greater reward...

 

Trust in God and he will heal your skin. Trust in God and try to support your parents. Trust in your life. You will be transformed through Christ your heart your mind and your life. Pray for love around you. You will be lead through the light in Christ pray read Gods bible and he will offer you all hope all needs and all goodness. Amen.