Hope
Servant of All
Lately, God, everything that can go wrong in my life is. I feel there is a curse on me and I'm at my end. I'm so tired of feeling like a failure in everything I do and like no one cares. Every time I think things are going to get better, they get 10 times worse. What have I done so wrong in my life to have to go through so much heartache and so many struggles? I pray, pray, pray to be married to my true love; it never happens. I pray for my kids to do better in school; they do worse. I pray for my finances to get better; they just get worse. Every time I try to better myself or do better, it goes the opposite. I don't understand what I have to do. I need a vacation but don't have the money or time. It would be nice, so nice to get away from my worries for just a little while. No worries, just fun and relaxation. Why do my kids not appreciate me? I feel like a bad mother, a bad daughter. I can't even help my mother who is sick. Everyone thinks my brother is great. When will anyone think I'm great... When... Never because I am nothing and will never be nothing but a failure in everything. God, why do I always make the wrong decisions. Why do things always go bad for me. Why do I have no one that really cares about me. I could disappear and I don't think anyone would notice until they needed something. My kids deserve so much better than me. I don't even know why I try just to be a failure because it just never works out for me. Why is that? Am I cursed? If so, can you please lift the curse? I don't have to have expensive things, just average with no stress. Why can't I have continued happiness, please? I feel like I'll never lose it and will be doomed forever. God, please help me, please. In Jesus' name, amen.
