anonymous4742
Servant of All
I don't know what to pray at this point. We are broke, bills and more bills all of which are past due, all of which want full payment now or services will be terminated or shut off, vehicle repossessed and so on. My husband's check will be one tenth (1/10) what We need to pay our bills not including food, medication or gas much less anything extra.
I don't understand, God. I don't understand why we pray and pray, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year only to be consistently disappointed. I have thanked you for everything. I pray believing you will help me out of my nightmares.
I am not happy, don't know what that is. Don't think I have known for I don't know the last time I was happy. I won't be happy until I am out of this financial nightmare and it doesn't seem to end.
Why won't God help me out of it. I did not create it. Even Jesus asked God why God had forsaken him. God put an end to Jesus' suffering. Why won't he put an end to mine? I have done and am doing all I can humanly do to remedy the situation. I try to be happy but I am not and can't feel happy until this financial nightmare is done and over until we are out of debt. How do I get us out of debt when I can't find work, and my husband's wages don't increase and we are further and further behind. If it were just me in this financial nightmare I could deal with it.
This has impact on me, my husband, my children, my grandchildren and my mother-in-law since we pay some of her bills.
God, if you are not going to help me then let me die before I have to pay another bill with money I don't have. I had rather be a widow than deal with the wrath of my husband.
In case you can't tell, I am tired, upset, angry, confused, very depressed, just plain tired of living.
I have been accused of being negative. You know what maybe I am, but when nothing good ever happens in your life how are you supposed to be happy and positive.
I feel like God does not want me to be either or things would change for the better.
I don't understand, God. I don't understand why we pray and pray, day after day, week after week, month after month, year after year only to be consistently disappointed. I have thanked you for everything. I pray believing you will help me out of my nightmares.
I am not happy, don't know what that is. Don't think I have known for I don't know the last time I was happy. I won't be happy until I am out of this financial nightmare and it doesn't seem to end.
Why won't God help me out of it. I did not create it. Even Jesus asked God why God had forsaken him. God put an end to Jesus' suffering. Why won't he put an end to mine? I have done and am doing all I can humanly do to remedy the situation. I try to be happy but I am not and can't feel happy until this financial nightmare is done and over until we are out of debt. How do I get us out of debt when I can't find work, and my husband's wages don't increase and we are further and further behind. If it were just me in this financial nightmare I could deal with it.
This has impact on me, my husband, my children, my grandchildren and my mother-in-law since we pay some of her bills.
God, if you are not going to help me then let me die before I have to pay another bill with money I don't have. I had rather be a widow than deal with the wrath of my husband.
In case you can't tell, I am tired, upset, angry, confused, very depressed, just plain tired of living.
I have been accused of being negative. You know what maybe I am, but when nothing good ever happens in your life how are you supposed to be happy and positive.
I feel like God does not want me to be either or things would change for the better.
