My Friend...God has HUGE shoulders and I'm sure, has been told worse. I believe in my whole heart that you have been forgiven and even though you tried to Blaspheme the Holy Spirit, I believe that if you truly did,
1. You wouldn't be coming near this site for Prayer.
2. You wouldn't have a conscience and/or even care what God or Jesus would think because you wouldn't care.
YOU do care and you are here....so, as far as the east is from the west, God has forgiven you.
Blessed is the man who's sins God doesn't not take into account.
He will forgive you 70 x 77 times.
Move on and start fresh. Seek out his biblical scripture on Forgiveness and dis allow Satan to make you feel guilty and unworthy.
Lord, there's more that meets the eye here and I'm thankful you see the Heart and the frustrations of the mind and heart that this person is going through. Even with a fist shakened at you. I've been there done that and if people were really honest, some of them would say they have too!
So, Father Thank you that this person and I can come to you and ask for forgiveness and that we will receive it and try once again, not to 'call you down'.
Thank you for lifting us out of our Deep Depression and Anger and taking away the deep frustration in our lives.
Thank you for healing this person from the inside out and calling Her your child and holding her tight into your right hand, that even despite herself, you'll never forsake her or allow Satan to snatch her from you.
Thank you that like a Mother Hen protecting her Chicks, that this soul is very precious to you and you will protect her under your pinions. (wing, feathers).
Like you forgave St. Paul, who murdered your Christian Followers, Thank you that you are gracious to Forgive, slow to Anger and would most likely tell the two of us, "To go and sin no more"...
Love you and your honesty and I'm sure the Lord does so much more.
Thank you Jesus...Amen.