Netta
Humble Servant of All
Hi everyone
I just read something about my symptoms and it's been anxiety all along I think. The devil keeps putting all this stuff in my head that is scaring me and weird stuff keeps happening and I have panic attacks around cops in the store because I'm scared they will think I am stealing something when I'm not the type to do such a thing or that they might think I'm being bad or aggressive in some kind of way since I'm already a little aggressive in my head but not outwardly or like the devil is going to tell them I'm about to do something wrong when I'm not even going to or like they sense a lie coming from the devil and they get suspicious about me.
And I'm afraid the cops are going to jump on me since they get suspicious about me and that scares me. And I have so many things that are symptoms of anxiety even though I'm doing better now, but the dreadful things keep coming back to me. And I can't even get further in life because I'm having learning problems and memory problems to where I can't remember what I have learned or how to do things and my mind keeps going blank when I try to think back to things I have learned or I get confused and I can't understand good enough or at all.
And my mind is always playing tricks on me which sometimes creeps me out like I'm tripping on some kind of drug that was prescribed to me which I was not taking because it causes tricky mind things that happen to me. The medicine either does not work or it causes horrible things to happen to me.
And also I could die from not having a soul or a heart inside me moving me to do anything. I almost did die a few times...because all the life got sucked out of me for some reason and I was not all the way there for a few seconds like I was hanging onto the end of the rope with nothing inside me or in my head...Just gone. I'm just fighting to live and have life and something good out of it. And it's been nothing but crap and temporary good things that don't stay. It's like God is playing games with me. My skin starts looking clear and nice and then it goes back to bad and it's like now you see it and now you don't. Just playing games with me. The fix is not permanent.
I'm sick of this crap happening. Whatever it is that is doing this to me needs to give it a rest forever. I just keep on losing all the life inside me. Just empty. So yeah, I have had it bad and I would like it if everyone would keep me in their prayers. Thank you.
I just read something about my symptoms and it's been anxiety all along I think. The devil keeps putting all this stuff in my head that is scaring me and weird stuff keeps happening and I have panic attacks around cops in the store because I'm scared they will think I am stealing something when I'm not the type to do such a thing or that they might think I'm being bad or aggressive in some kind of way since I'm already a little aggressive in my head but not outwardly or like the devil is going to tell them I'm about to do something wrong when I'm not even going to or like they sense a lie coming from the devil and they get suspicious about me.
And I'm afraid the cops are going to jump on me since they get suspicious about me and that scares me. And I have so many things that are symptoms of anxiety even though I'm doing better now, but the dreadful things keep coming back to me. And I can't even get further in life because I'm having learning problems and memory problems to where I can't remember what I have learned or how to do things and my mind keeps going blank when I try to think back to things I have learned or I get confused and I can't understand good enough or at all.
And my mind is always playing tricks on me which sometimes creeps me out like I'm tripping on some kind of drug that was prescribed to me which I was not taking because it causes tricky mind things that happen to me. The medicine either does not work or it causes horrible things to happen to me.
And also I could die from not having a soul or a heart inside me moving me to do anything. I almost did die a few times...because all the life got sucked out of me for some reason and I was not all the way there for a few seconds like I was hanging onto the end of the rope with nothing inside me or in my head...Just gone. I'm just fighting to live and have life and something good out of it. And it's been nothing but crap and temporary good things that don't stay. It's like God is playing games with me. My skin starts looking clear and nice and then it goes back to bad and it's like now you see it and now you don't. Just playing games with me. The fix is not permanent.
I'm sick of this crap happening. Whatever it is that is doing this to me needs to give it a rest forever. I just keep on losing all the life inside me. Just empty. So yeah, I have had it bad and I would like it if everyone would keep me in their prayers. Thank you.
