Anonymous
Beloved of All
I currently have a lot of storms in my life. But I have faith God will get me through. I;m a single mom of 3 children. 2 teenagers and 1 pre-teen. My oldest (son) had been lying, getting poor grades and skipping class and doing drugs. We've been going to an awesome Christian counselor but he still rebels. It has been exhausting. I returned to school for my Masters Degree in teaching 5 years ago to flee an abusive relationship at God;s prompting. Despite the degree and excellent references and experience I have yet to secure a continuing full time job. Subbing barely pays the bills leaving me the struggle of needing 1 or 2 more jobs and less time at home and much more stress and burden.
I met a wonderful man last year. I fought with every ounce of me to like him because I didn't want to "screw" up again and put my children through hardship. I have prayed since meeting him if I'm just being naive or if it is right. He was in the middle of a divorce when we started hanging out as friends.
Things progressed between us and his divorce became final. We began dating shortly after. He became scared and we took things slow. We felt so comfortable with each other we began to get close again. Unfortunately we stepped out against God amd became intimate at times. His mom became deathly Ill and lost the battle 3 months after the diagnosis.
I have been by his side and walked through the roller coaster with him. I knew being intimate was wrong and I want our relationship to be God honoring for our children. So I prayed and prayed and even though I know it is always a risk to take that out of the picture when it had started I stopped it. Things have been emotionally trying for a while because of the loss of his mom and his own demons. I don;t know where things sit but I stepped out in faith trusting and asking God to honor that decision. I truly care and love him, of course I fear losing him. I know he cares deeply for me and I pray for him daily to have God heal his wounds too.
I know that;s a bigger part of what God wants me to do. All of these sit on my shoulders unknown every day. Im at a place where I feel like I've hit bottom but I am doing what I feel like God wants me to do. A rebellious son, no job, a broken relationship... I desperately need Jesus to step in and help. I want my story to be a sun still story and a witness to others because I know God is here. my prayer is he does miraculous things in all of these areas of my life. I am struggling and feeling pretty depressed. I fight against that daily, Than you so much in advance for any and all prayers
I met a wonderful man last year. I fought with every ounce of me to like him because I didn't want to "screw" up again and put my children through hardship. I have prayed since meeting him if I'm just being naive or if it is right. He was in the middle of a divorce when we started hanging out as friends.
Things progressed between us and his divorce became final. We began dating shortly after. He became scared and we took things slow. We felt so comfortable with each other we began to get close again. Unfortunately we stepped out against God amd became intimate at times. His mom became deathly Ill and lost the battle 3 months after the diagnosis.
I have been by his side and walked through the roller coaster with him. I knew being intimate was wrong and I want our relationship to be God honoring for our children. So I prayed and prayed and even though I know it is always a risk to take that out of the picture when it had started I stopped it. Things have been emotionally trying for a while because of the loss of his mom and his own demons. I don;t know where things sit but I stepped out in faith trusting and asking God to honor that decision. I truly care and love him, of course I fear losing him. I know he cares deeply for me and I pray for him daily to have God heal his wounds too.
I know that;s a bigger part of what God wants me to do. All of these sit on my shoulders unknown every day. Im at a place where I feel like I've hit bottom but I am doing what I feel like God wants me to do. A rebellious son, no job, a broken relationship... I desperately need Jesus to step in and help. I want my story to be a sun still story and a witness to others because I know God is here. my prayer is he does miraculous things in all of these areas of my life. I am struggling and feeling pretty depressed. I fight against that daily, Than you so much in advance for any and all prayers
