AJH40
Disciple of Prayer
I committed the Unpardonable Sin so many times that I think I've reached the point of no return. I did this by resisting to give up a sin that I've found foolishly pleasurable so long until I got to the point that the sensitivity to committing that sin against God no longer bothers my conscience. The Holy Spirit can no longer arouse my conscience to a sense of grief or regret for the wrongs that I've done because I resisted so long and by resting for a long time; my sensitivity of my conscience begin to become more numb and numb until it was completely numb and I no longer can sense a wrongdoing for my sin against God and want a relationship with Jesus out of love.
I recognize that my particular sin is wrong and other sin I've done were wrong. This is from a intellectual understanding. I can't say though that I sense remorse for them against God. The only thing I can say is that I am open to getting a sensitive conscience again. my motive for being open to getting a sensitive conscience again is out of self-gain and not because I love God. I request for all of you to pray so that perhaps God may grant me mercy and awaken my conscience to sensitivity to him and his ways and my motive; though it is for me to be happy and have a well life for the purpose of pleasing me, that is be changed to loving God and man. Not only myself and that desire to do God's will.
Thank you so much,
I recognize that my particular sin is wrong and other sin I've done were wrong. This is from a intellectual understanding. I can't say though that I sense remorse for them against God. The only thing I can say is that I am open to getting a sensitive conscience again. my motive for being open to getting a sensitive conscience again is out of self-gain and not because I love God. I request for all of you to pray so that perhaps God may grant me mercy and awaken my conscience to sensitivity to him and his ways and my motive; though it is for me to be happy and have a well life for the purpose of pleasing me, that is be changed to loving God and man. Not only myself and that desire to do God's will.
Thank you so much,
