After giving up my home and being homeless for an abusive pastor, I find out I have cancer. I am about to lose everything I own in storage including family photos since I spent two months in the hospital. I am alone and scared. I have no where to go and no one to stand next to me and cheer me through fighting this horrible illness. I sit and cry now. I can't make it through this. I turned to another Christian who also turned away from me. God, you are the only being who will not betray and lie to me. Don't drag me through an extended and painful time. Take me now. I can't take being alone and need the tears to stop. Please, you are my Lord. I need you to do this.
Father, in the name of Jesus, you know the plight that Adrienne finds herself, and I remind you of your word where You said that You will never leave nor forsake Adrienne...in the name of Jesus, I ask for a release of your goodness into her life right now, and I bind her to that truth that declares that if You be for Adrienne, who can be against her, for You are her light and her salvation, whom shall she fear? you are the strength of her life, of whom shall she be afraid? When the wicked, even mine enemies and my foes, came upon me to eat up my flesh, they stumbled and fell. Though an host should encamp against me, my heart shall not fear: though war should rise against me, in this will I be confident. One thing have I desired of the LORD, that will I seek after; that I may dwell in the house of the LORD all the days of my life, to behold the beauty of the LORD, and to enquire in his temple. For in the time of trouble he shall hide me in his pavilion: in the secret of his tabernacle shall he hide me; he shall set me up upon a rock. And now shall mine head be lifted up above mine enemies round about me: therefore will I offer in his tabernacle sacrifices of joy; I will sing, yea, I will sing praises unto the LORD. Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice: have mercy also upon me, and answer me. When thou saidst, Seek ye my face; my heart said unto thee, Thy face, LORD, will I seek. Hide not thy face far from me; put not thy servant away in anger: thou hast been my help; leave me not, neither forsake me, O God of my salvation. When my father and my mother forsake me, then the LORD will take me up. Teach me thy way, O LORD, and lead me in a plain path, because of mine enemies. Deliver me not over unto the will of mine enemies: for false witnesses are risen up against me, and such as breathe out cruelty. I had fainted, unless I had believed to see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait on the LORD: be of good courage, and he shall strengthen thine heart: wait, I say, on the LORD. (Ps. 27)
Adrienne, God is faithful, no matter how you may feel or what you think. There is a warfare going on, and the devil is using manifested thoughts to convince you that God doesn't care about you, and that He is not there to help you, and those manifested thoughts may even come through other Christians... Hundreds of times God has said not to fear, because fear has torment, and that perfect love casts out that fear. Know that God absolutely loves you, and what you are going through right now is NOT His will for you. He says that the thoughts he has toward you are for good, not evil, to give you a hope and a good future. He says to fear no evil tidings, that our hearts are to be established in His truth of the situations and circumstances we find ourselves in. There are many pastors out there who are men of integrity, character, filled with the Spirit of God, and the love of God whose hearts are filled with compassion and mercy for those who are in need. Father, in the name of Jesus, order Adrienne's steps in the right direction to those of the body of Christ who can not only encourage her and help her, but also minister to her healing and restoration of all that has been taken from her. In the name of Jesus Christ I curse that cancer to the root! I bind the strongman and his works, and in the name of Jesus, cast out that spirit of infirmity! I cast you into the pit and you will not come back! In the name of Jesus Christ, I command pain, GO! Fill her, Jesus, with the Holy Ghost and restore unto her the joy of her salvation. In the name of Jesus, I bind Adrienne to the mercy and grace of God, and command healing in her body. Be healed! in Jesus' name!
