Kelli, we are all sinners. You know that one sin is just as bad as another. So your drug addiction is up there with my lying or whatever I might do. Sin is sin, it's all wrong but Jesus will forgive you for it. He knows that you want to stop using pain pills, keep wanting to stop Kelli, keep asking the Lord to help you and he will. I broke my back in Feb and of course they loaded me up on everything, I had to come to the point where I had to flush them and say that's it, but I couldn't do it until my pain mostly went away. The Lord knows you are in pain girl, take what you need to kill the pain, don't worry about it, don't take anymore than you need to though, take what the doctors prescribe. They usually know what's best for your pain. You can tackle the addiction when you are pain free, not while you are hurting. That's just the devil trying to kick you while you are down, because he's like that. He'll get you or me to do something and then he'll tell us we are worthless for doing it, what a loser. Kelli, you are going to be ok girl, keep praying to our Father in Heaven, keep seeking the Lords will and he will open doors for you. I will pray for you Kelli, God bless you girl and don't be too hard on yourself, we are all sinners and we are all unworthy of our Gods love, but he loves us anyway...no matter what. So that's good for you and that's especially good for me, cause i'm a sinner. God bless you Kelli.