I feel like joining a secret cult for wealth or committing suicide right now because things ain't going in my favour. He says that the thought He has for us is of good, not of evil yet nothing good smiles at me despite how much I reverence and rely on Him. I want to ask Did God curse me? I 've suffered for a long time. No Providence on my side, no divine help. Am beginning to 've dejection feelings in spite of all the prayers. Seems God hate me. I don't think i can stand it any longer. Intercessors help me.