Dear Brother
I have been through even far worst than your situation and try to end my life not once but five times one after another but i survived. I don't know how until I came to know who Christ is in our lives. Jesus is the only way, the truth and the life and in the worst conditions that we think are impossible to handle, He comes and takes over and turns the situation upside down. Brother ask Jesus our saviour and redeemer with all your heart and all your mind and receive the miracle you would have never imagined in your life. HE works in ways we can not see, HE WILL MAKE A WAY, WHERE THERE SEEMS TO BE NO WAY.... STAY BLESSED IN HIS ARMS ALWAYS. May Jesus be your life for rest of your days on earth and until eternity in His Kingdom. Amen